todayz 31st jan le.. so fast 2004 iz over.. itz a rather disastrous yr ba.. so many bad things happen..juz packed mi clothes to give to those tsunami victims/.. guess itz the least i can do to help ba..
in slightly more than 48 hrs.. i'll be in a totally diff sch.. no matter wat i sae.. i still feel like a lone fish swimming in a big ocean..haiz/.. sorrie pam n huiying.. yesterdae didnt sae goodbye.. im sorrie i ran away.. but if i turned back.. i wont be able to fight back mi tears anymore.. dun worry i'll be strong.. or at least i'll try.. but i had fun yesterdae, even thogh i dun realli noe wat kungfu hustle was abt hah.. i havent written THAT email.. i realise i cant do it.. no matter how i phrase it alwaez seems wrong.. well hope i can finish it soon.
juz now tt vj person called le.. but i pretended to be asleep.. dun wan to hear frm anyone.. guess im in depressed mood ba.. aniwae mi bro take msg for me.. mi orientation grp iz ice ( krys wld be happie ba) hah.. aniwae.. wont be going online or answer any sms.. sorrie.. but i juz wan to be alone.. since i got lotz of time to get used to being alone aniwae.. itz not anionez fault.. it was mi choice.. but.. i still feel angry n upset.. but at who?? i realli dunno.. maebe myself.. or maebe the whole world.. i dunno.. hope evryone have a happie new yr.. hope i'll be happie too..

juz read the straits times online for more news abt the tsunami thingie..death toll now iz more than 60000!! juz a few days can rise SO dramatically.. so horrible..mi father got a few colleagues in phuket.. some came back safely.. got one family still cant contact them.. then i tink evrybody quite worried for them.. mi father saez the airport cargo nowadays iz transporting all the relief items.. maebe they'll have to transport bodies too =X last time got one accident.. forgot which one.. shld be some air crash ba then mi father they all oso got receive coffins n bodies at the cargo terminal.. quite scary hor.. =Z but tis time the disaster struck so close to home..imagine if got tsunami hit us.. i tink whole of s'pore wld be flattened le haha..yest i was thinkin.. humans r quite stupid rite.. they invent more n more hi-tech weapons to defend against other ppl.. to fight wars.. to kill each other n evrything.. but in the end watz it all for? even all the weapons in the world canot defend us frm the true forces of nature. so we might as well spend the $$ developing things tt can help to save lives frm natural disasters/.. like helping the poor ctries to build warning systems or watever loh..
aniwae.. onli 4 days to sch reopen!! n the OCLs frm vj still havent call me yet.. =S dunno wat to bring on 1st day.. n dunno where to go oso.. haiz.. so many dunnos.. go there surely veri blur de la.. but i dun care le.. i decided tt im onli going there to study..dun care if im happie or not, have frens or not or watever.. hah actualli i dun even noe if i can cope wif studies now.. nvm.. canot at most drop out loh.. dun care oso/.
hah, kk letz move on to more happie stuff.. yesterdae go out wif mi best frenz.. we juz sat n chat for hours.. havent done tt for a long time.. thankz guys.. i realli had fun.. tt cld be the last time we meet tog as the very very very best frenz?? cuz we'll all meet new ppl in future.. oops.. supposed to be happie stuff =X ok.. so last nite watched epl highlights.. but onli watched 15 min cuz we too engrossed in watching CNA haha.. but juz in time to watch the liverpool match =D as expected all the goals were great!! esp Riise's =) then last nit liverpool oso beat southampton 1-0!! not much la.. but better than lose.. hahaz. kk ttz all loh/..

guess evrybody heard of the mega earthquake in indonesia ba.. thiz morning juz watched the CNA news.. feel quite sad for all those ppl in the affected areas... end of the year liaoz still have this kind of disaster.. quite ke lian oso..currently death toll iz abt 16000 lehz.. i tink ttz alot loh/.. plus all these ppl r innocent oso... maebe i shld be glad im living in s'pore.. summore iz the safe part of singapore.. no tremors watsoever.. hah.. aniwae now iz christmas season ma.. supposed to be joyous de.. though those ctries hit r mostly muslim ctries la.. but then i tink itz so terrible if u lose ur family n loved ones during festive season summore.. hai hope singapore can offer aid to them ba.. =) n at least got no singaporeans dead i tink..

heyz.. so fast christmas over le!! well actualli got 12 days la/.. but.. nvm haha. so.. yesterdae mi xmas day turned out to be a movie marathon day.. frm 10 am watched until 1.30 pm.. first watched "santa and pete".. follwed by "flight of the reindeer", then stephen chow's hilarious but dumb show.. then rest a while.. then watched "dumb and dumber". and then is "pay it forward", part of the "so close" ( got shuqi, zhaowei and karen mok de..) and the last part of the para Para sakura thing haha.. quite shuang la.. watch tv e whole day.. then lunch we ordered kfc delivery n chocolate ice cream.. *yum*
then xmas eve went out wif frenz they all la.. quite fun too.. eat until veri full/.. but not much xmas spirit cuz we not in orchard area ma././ actualli i wanted to go de.. but then feet pain (thanks to mi stupid shoes) so bo bian... =C but aniwae still had fun hahaz.. =)
eh.. like nth else to sae lehz.. haha././ oh ya.. happie boxing day! haha

hii.. early merry christmas to evrybody!! im still veri boredd lehz.// been trying to make xmas cards for some of mi frenz haa.. but then, mi art so horrible.. dun tink itz veri nice leh.. but nvm la hor.. i dun haf $$ to buy cards or gifts leh.. so sorrie.. hahaz.. in fact i dun haf $$ for anithing!! im broke.. then fri nite. we going to celebrate xmas tog rite.. hopefully guys treat us girls leh.. =P haha but oso nvm if u all dun wan la.. aniwae now iz supposed to be equal society? haha.. will find someway to dig out $$ de. =D hope tis will be a veri fun and memorable nite.. cuz nxt time dunno if still got chance to meet n celebrate xmas tog?
left onli a less than 2 weeks to sch reopen!! so nervous././ wat to bring on 1st day leh? aiya,.. dun care abt sch probs le lar.. im sick of tt.
k erm.. last nite watch the EPL highlights on channel i. so sad i dun haf scv haha.. cant watch the games.. but nvm la watch highlights better than nth i gues.. last week the matches all so exciting de haha.. so many goals =P
*yawn* tink ttz it ba.. tis few days nv do much .. nth to tok abt. -sianZ-

The days creep,
Closer and closer,
To the start of a new year.
My heart sinks,
Lower and lower,
Into a bottomless pit.
I should be happy,
I should rejoice.
But how can I,
When everyone I treasure,
Are scattered across the island.
You will never walk alone.
The motto of Liverpool FC,
The motto I always believed in.
Suddenly I find,
Is that true?
I should be proud.
Victoria junior college,
What a prestigious school.
I should be glad,
I can go to school.
But I hate changes,
And I hate separations.
A new environment,
A new beginning.
That is what everyone says,
Maybe in time that will be true,
For now I am just unsure.
But never mind,
I believe I will try.
To my friends,
Who did not get into
Their school of choice,
Cheer up, cuz,
You will never walk
Alone.

tis iz part of mi conversation wif yx..


=°»§hÅrÖñ«° = ~* - || i remember you, i walked with you once upon a dream || - o( " )o says:
maebe i put.. "yx sae she veri cute"
msn seem so meaningless... says:
i din sae k
msn seem so meaningless... says:
is TRUTH
msn seem so meaningless... says:
dun ned to sae de
msn seem so meaningless... says:
cute is TRUTH dun ned to tell the whole world de
=°»§hÅrÖñ«° = ~* - || i remember you, i walked with you once upon a dream || - o( " )o says:
=X

p.s: i where got force u to sae me hahaz =P

SIANZ... but itz better than going to sch i guess.. thinkin abt sch reopen again.. haizz.. i realli dun wan to start sch again lehzz.. imagine all the tests n hw again.. oso haf to make new frenz.. adapt to new environment and WAKE UP EARLY again!!! n if i realli get into vj.. have to go all the way to east coast evryday.. wah i tink i'll die halfway on the bus hahaz..
aniwae speakin of east coast/ tt day gathering wasnt tt bad la pam... though evrybody do diff things but at least had abit of fun? beter than staying at home n dun get to meet up for the last few times hah// too bad mr choo nv come..n i dun tink i'll go ride a bike in east coast again. at least nt for the time being.. tink i almost died there hahaz.. ttz mi 3rd time riding a bicycle.. n i cant reaalli balance properly la.. then there got SO many ppl... i siam evrywhere oso got oncoming bike or some aggressive person behhind me or some little kid barreling around on their tricycles.. veri scary hahaz.. i felll alot alot of timess.. sorrie krys n kl.. nearly knocked u all down hahaz.. n i got into a headon collision wif one indian guy.. not mi fault ok.. he was on the wrong lane!! n didnt even sae sorrie loh.. so rude/ then now i got bruises evrywhere.. so pathetic hahaz..
tmr iz the day we get results of the posting thingie.. suddenly i dun wan to go vj animore.. itz sooooo far..can imagine the long n stupid bus ride to n fro.. going to take more 1 hr to reach there.. wah sianz. y cant hg have a decent jc for once!! sure we got a jc.. serangoon loh.. mi mom wld rather i go poly than go there.. even though i can reach serangoon jc in abt 5 min.. see la. y cant raffles or watever dumb sch be in hg??? watz wrong wif hg har?! stupid stupid stupid. oh n liverpool lost to everton AND draw wif portsmouth. where got such thing de?? so suay hahaz...

heyzz..wah so fast monday again!! soon gonna haf to starrt waking up at 5.30 am again.. (-siannz-). aniwae i had quite a fun weekend la.. fri nite went to celebrate mi motherz bdae.. the dinner was veri delicious!! but eat the black pepper crab until sore throat hahaz..we were eating at the changi civil service ctry club the restaurant... so after dinner went outside n walked around the beach a little/. although quite dark cant see much hahaz.. then saturdae went to chinatown wif family.. walked frm 1 to 8 pm.. i tink i nearly walked mi legs off.. =X veri tired.. but quite alot of things to see la.. then we go to the peoplez park market there eat the famous yong tau foo for lunch.. so small bowl onli!! but aniwae still veri full la.. so then continue walk walk loh..saw alot of angmohs there..n we oso saw a troupe performing stunts.. the girls can like bend here bend there as though they made of sponge or something.. so lihai hahaz..
yupz then last nite watch the hong xing da jiang.. we decided not to go out again after all hahaz.. too tired le..ya ttz abt it loh.. mi fun weekend? hahaz

haha todae iz a great day!! at least until now la.. =X morning went to play badminton wif kl, the twins, huiying, alvin n wl.. had a lot of fun! hahaz, so long nv play badminton le..abit rusty liaoz hahaz.. but still at least got exercise abit la/.. got a feeling tmr mi arm will be veri sore... yupz then after tt go to old sch the coffee shop there eat lunch.. i miss the carrot cake so much!! 2 yrs nv go there le.... then went bac to see see the 'new' old sch.. hahaz.. realli change alot!! although quite nice.. but i realli miss the old building.. now all our memories r demolished.. =X didnt see much teachers around... yet still can get sort of scolded by the mdm chua.. hmm so suay.. but nvm . dun let her dampen mi spirits hahaz.. so.. had fun.. poor kitson went all the way to dunno where for a job interview.. n didnt get the job hahaz.. lucky i didnt go wif him =P// but aniwae i decided not to work le la.. left a few wks.. might as well enjoy hahazz.. nxt time i'll be working till..65? haha now no need work dun purposely go find work le la..
oh n 1 more GREAT NEWS!!! haha.. Liverpool beat olympiakos 3-1 !! yay qualify for champions league =D who sae they cant win hmmph// hahaz.. anibody got read Newpaper hahaz? big report on the match =) n man utd lost hahaz.. ok la.. guess i better go n bathe.. feeling so hot n sticky now...

bloggin again.... tink the frequency of me blogging in dec is much higher than throughout the whole yr/.. hahaz.. aniwaezz yesterdae went shoppin wif kl!! bought quite alot of stuff.. although nt as bad as kl =P hah so aniwae got buy 3 T-shirts n 3 socks then eat lunch at kfc..current financial status: broke. hah.. looks like have to 'eat air' for the rest of the wk haiz..oh n we saw a shop sellin veri cute tees of Mao n Stalin =X hahaz.. wanted to buy the stalin n hitler one.. but so sad no money le hahaz.. wonder who designed those shirts...
anwiae yesterdae was raining while we shopped so got a little drenched.. n so now i got a flu n headache.. haiz.. supposed to go job-hunting wif huiying n wl de... guess im not fated to work? hahaz.. n mi mom wont let me go wif pris they all to hg mall... heard gs giving a treat? for god-knows-what occasion/.. but i missed it hahaz.. wat a waste =P but nvm, help him to sAve $$ loh.. hahaz
so.. stuck at home today... nth much to do as usual.. later going to fry rice for lunch.. n prob watch all the tapes n vcds again/. haizzzzzzz .. lookin forward to badminton tmr.. hope i get better by then.. got a splitting headache nw.. =X
anyway guys rmb to bring shuttlecock ok.. dun wanna be hitting flies and air molecules when we get ther.. =S

todae such a BORING n GLOOMY day.. rain the whole day.. but good lar quite cooling.. as usual.. nth to do!! i read finish the 7 bks i borrowed last fri.. =X todae, same thing again.. go online.. watch tv.. watched Lion King Part II for dunno how many times le n i still watched it again hahaz. but itz a veri nice show la..eat maggi mee again. for once im realli sick of it!! =X but raining lazy to go out n eat..
oh ya, mi bro come back last nite! seems like he had LOTS of fun over in thailand.. he sae the kids there all veri cute.. n strong too! evry mornning he wake up to see a little girl carrying buckets of water.. =X oh n they dig trenches to build the tank.. the hole they dig 3 hrs still haven finish.. those kids finish in 1hr. n they climb up n down the mt carrying sacks of sand w/o even breaking into a sweat! cool.. oh n mi kor oso got sae abt some of the habits of the pple there.. the rice they eat is mashed into a BIG HARD BALL which u eat wif chopsticks n spoon.. oh n their names soooo cute.. got one little girl.. 1 yr old de.. her name iz called pillapong! dunno how to spell it la.. but ttz how u pronounce it.. heard shez a veri veri lovable child..
haii so xian mu... i oso feel like going.. but dun tink mi parents will allow ba/. reason? cuz im a girl. =(
haha but nvm.. i can imagine!

im soooo tired now haha.. cuz guess wat?? todae i cleared mi room!! finally finally hahaz.. tot i wld nv get it done.. yup so now im exhausted.. but well as least mi room is now as clutter-free as i can get it. =X threw away practically EVERYTHING... at first was hesitatin alot.. like dunno whether if i'll need tt stack of maths n physics n chem wksht again if i happen to change combi.. so then mi room was like a bomb exploded inside.. stuff evrywhere then dunno whether to throw or not to throw or where to put it... hai then in the end soooo frustrated i juz dump evrything la! heck care le.. i tink dumped abt 10 plastic bags?? =X n plus old dictionary, files, hairclips, blah blah all the rubbish la. damn tiring.. spent the whole day doing it loh.. but now finally finish can slack liaoz hahaz.. n no more naggings!!!!! haha/. So... ttz all mi entertainment todae ba.. oh ya n i finished writing mi play in 1 day =X supposed to be mi holiday boredom killer... but.. mission accomplished hahaz.. so far onli yk read it.. dunno watz his feedback haha.. aniwae itz totally lame la =S arrgh watever.. oh n nxt wk going to play badminton!! so fun.. =D
hahaz..oh aniwae mi broz coming back tonite! hahaz


"Friends, though absent, are still present" -- Cicero

hii finally managed to get into blogger..last nite dunno wat happen cant go in got dunno wat stupid error hahaz... aniwaezz last nite watched s'pore idols finals.. n taufik wins!! hah not tt i support him la.. but then nobody left le. i rather pick him than sly.. no offense to sly fans =P actualli i tink both of them all veri good bahz..too bad onli can haf 1 S idol.. n finally tt Ken got make some nice comments hah.. dun like his face. kk letz switch topic//
yesterdae.. went wif pam they all plus zq to juction 8 to window shop.. itz a terrible thing when u haf no money~!! haha ttz y im in need of a job.. ya aniwae we juz sat at mos burger most of the time..moping n toking crap ba.. well still gotta cherish these moments i gues..better than rotting at home.. then krys, rmb u sort of "scolded" me hahaz.. then pris sae why u keep "scolding" me hahaz.. then u sae muz treasure ur scoldings cuz nxt time "ni yao ren ma dou mei you ren li ni le".. haiz n u unwittingly awakened mi fears again!! realli quite worried tt i go vj alone.. then wat if i dun haf any frenz?? u noe me la.. i dun realli noe how to make frenz wif ppl de.. plus sommore im pro-chinese, not the angmoh type.. wont be surprised if i become an 'outcast' there hahz./ hai watever la.. zou yi bu kan yi bu loh..
ok enuf of the self-pity stuff.. im later going to heartland mall to buy shoes for nxt yr.. n shun bian go n walk walk abit haha.. stay at home so sian..need to get out to breathe some fresh air!! not tt s'porez air veri clean la/.. but i realli got nth much to do except clean mi room (*horrors*!!!!!!) if i stay home hah..