my mother and i are hilarious!
we just spent the last half an hour combing thru the house looking for my spectacles.. cuz after i bathed, she told me to go and put some egg face mask so i took off my glasses, put them on the table and went to my room to listen to my mp3 for awhile. then later when i washed off the mask, i cldnt find my specs and i dont rmb where i left it either. and u noe without my glasses im as blind as a bat, and my mother sometimes is abit blur.. so we search here search there (more like grope here grope there for me) and i was like, oh no could i have thrown it down the rubbish bin with the eggshell like the other time my mom did? and die i cant go church tmr without my glasses, i cant go camp and hostel either and papa will kill me..so i went to put on my spare pair which is like so blur and only one side has lens anyway and continue to search..then mummy suggested it could be in her room, i said i didnt even step into your room, and guess wat it really was there!!!! i was like hey this is kinda freaky how cld it have ended up there by itself..and summore this few days keep having incidents where the doorbell wld ring but when i open the door there's no one there. so i was like wats gg on? and then i realised its mummy blur la.. she always likes to leave her spectacles lying around, so just now she had on her glasses but she forgot, so she mistook my glasses for hers and took it to her room tog with her hp! duh~~~~~~~~ haha we cldnt stop laughing. me and my glasses are inseparable ok! lol.

ive been having really weird dreams recently.. last night i had a nightmare! i dreamt someone gave me this pair of haunted shoes, and anyone who wears it cant take it off and lots of creepy unlucky things will befall them and the ppl around. like drowning in a toilet (what grosser fate can you think of?), my parents meeting an accident (!!!), and ppl trying to kill me and seeing blood red images everywhere. i tell u its really scary! so finally i was running on this road, trying to escape frm some maniac who doesnt look human who's trying to murder me, and i heard my father honking his car at me for me to get onboard, so i kicked my feet really hard and managed to kick off those evil shoes (if i rmb correctly is black nike shoes??) and dashed barefoot into the car. as we zoomed past i saw this little boy picking them up and wearing them and i was like NO! but too late the evil went over to him instead, but i didnt find out what happened cuz we zoomed away liao, but somehow i knew that one by one his family members died really gruesome deaths, until one day this bloodsoaked zhenzi-looking woman came to look for me and she looks really like those korean horror movie kind of ghost and said she wanted revenge for her whole family then she was like dangling that pair of shoes in front of me.. wa i really freaked out man. tats when i woke up i think, and it was thunderstorm-ing outside and i was like wa wa am i in reality or what. whew very long dont have this kind of nightmare that really scared me haha. and i havent watched any horror movies recently! over-imaginative mind i think.. hah..
but anyway, today i went kboxing wif audrey at cine. first time i went kbox and didnt sing a single jay song! we sort of mayday-ed all the way plus a few nanquanmama and some other lame fahrenheit songs haha..and towards the end we were like sing one line then skip haha..so funny..and tmr have muskies outing at cine again! lol. i seem to have alot of location clash recently. like keep gg the same place very frequently..anyway i think im getting sick.. after sentosa like not feeling very well.. oh and next week zhengxian's coming from taiwan! so prob gg to have our TIP gathering yay :)
hmm a thought just occured to me-- i seem to have a lot of distinct grps of friends..pri sch friends, muskies and sec sch friends, jc class friends, cca friends, TIP friends, cell grp friends, ntu ministry friends, china friends and random friends.. if can mix everybody tog wont that be good haha. then everyone will know everyone else and mummy wont ask, how come you're always going out with friends!

yesterday i went to sentosa again! haha. i think if u ask me go sentosa again i'll scream. but yesterday was really really fun again haha. didnt know there are sooooooo many types of beach games u can play. and i found out eating sea-soaked watermelon is actually quite nice..and i won the colour grid game without realising it lol. i think all in all we played more than 10 different games? really must give it to the seniors who can come up with so many lame games.. and everyone's so into transformers now.. our group starscream was great! and another thing is all the china scholars all very fun to mix with! like even though i didnt go on monday, after yesterday we clicked quite well oso. and oso got to know the seniors abit better.. like kimchi, first time i saw him i thought he's quite scary, but actually he's quite fun to have ard haha. anyway yesterday got drenched so many times, today abit of flu liao.. and i got even more blacker than last saturday haha..even though i used up half a bottle of my spf 50+++ sunblock hahah. (usual ppl jus buy spf 30) and summore the tanline not even.. im like red and brown n yellowish-brown. haha. but yay veri happie to know this great bunch of ppl. sunday after svc we gg to eat 麻辣火鍋！

arghs my body is aching again.. muscle pain frm yesterday beach volleyball and frisbee.. yesterday sentosa was fun =) ive been to sentosa more times the past 2 mths than the previous 11 years haha..but i tink i got blacker.. noooooooooooooo...!! dont noe why i blacken so easily yet no matter wat amt of sunblock or whitening lotion i use i dont get any whiter.. sigh.
oh anyway, i went to dye my hair haha.. the hairdresser very nice, gimme free coffee summore. lol. but im thinking i shld have gone one shade lighter.. actually picked this darker colour was because i thought my mom will kill me for dye-ing hair. but surprisingly her reaction not very big haha.. if i know i wld have picked a lighter colour. but, aiya anything la.
this week gg to be quite busy, albeit in a good way. gg to watch harry potter! then thurs kbox mayday-ing wif aud, fri muskies gathering. i still haven decided if im gg for the evangelist camp tmr haa.. prob not.. my blisters too painful.. stupid new shoes, dont understand why it can cause blisters when its still too big.. =x
my kor is coming back in a few weeks time!! then i realise, yikes sch's gg to start soon and i havent prepared anything! sch supplies, hostel stuff, camp stuff... im jus procrastinating i guess.. im not prepared to utilise my brain again! i dont want to go back to sch yet! when i think of the future challenges, its kinda scary.. i really want to believe i can get through these next 3 years and come out a better person, cuz i think ultimately despite working in a company for 4 mths and teaching tuition for 3 mths, i havent really got to know what the working world's really like.. cuz my company is so small i only have like 2 or 3 colleagues hahah..and tuition is frankly speaking jus a way for me to generate income haha. but i tink im SERIOUSLY underpaid for all my efforts hmmphs. minus all the tpt and food expenditure i got like nth left. ppl like sheila can find nice jobs that pay $1400.. pamela can find a job in prestigeous MDA, donno why i always find the lousy ones haha. maybe im too despo? but, no point saying all these now la, since sch is like in less than a mth's time..but oh wells i got abit of experience out of everything, and i hope all the lives that ive stepped into (and out) have been at least positively impacted on haha.
i tink i'vebeen leading a too sheltered life la. shld get out more haha. but im trying to be more enthu already.. i dont wanna be 自闭 anymore, hope there is improvement haha.

Transformers is one freaking nice movie.
action, comedy, love, friendship and sci-fi all rolled into one.
one of the few science fiction movies i actually liked, and managed to get me so excited i stomped on the foot of the person sitting beside me like 2 or 3 times.. XD
im like, whoa i wanna watch again. haha.. so go watch it =)

last night i had a weird weird dream! i dreamt i got arrested for murder! @_@
well in the dream i was still a student, wearing a st nicks uniform of all things.. elaine must have made a bigger impact on me than i thought haha.. anyway, this murder took place la, and apparently the killer had the same name as me, and i happened to be near the murder scene, so i got arrested..weirdly though, the two officers who arrested me were super nice. one was a guy and the other a girl. then they actually oso dont believe i'd kill someone (like of course la!!) but because its the course of duty they got no choice. so anyway, we were in the police car which the guy officer drove, and btw the car was like huge, feels like a limo, not that i've taken a limo before..then the journey took super super long like a few hours, even though s'pore is so smal.. and pamela called me on my phone, said the muskies were at sentosa on some yacht (dont ask me where they got a yacht haha). anyway pam asked if i can join them and i didnt dare to say im on a police car! anyway halfway we even stopped at some supermarket to snacks. then in the supermarket someone thought the woman officer (who wasnt wearing uniform, cuz she's like CID or smth) and me were mother daughter, then she said to the person no, im not her daughter im a suspect of murder, and it was like so paiseh!!! then after that we actually took a bus instead of the car i oso dunno why. a bus that can sit straight up beside the driver. and my ezlink actually had no money inside (same situation in reality haha) so anyway we talked on the ride lor, they asked me abt sch, family, friends and stuff and i said i was gg uni and they were like shocked cuz i dont look 19 hah.
anyway, finally reached the interrogation area, which was like this room where u have to climb up a long flight of stairs then at the top there's this red metal gate and then when i went in there was a small table with 3 other officers sitting down. i rmb asking the 2 officers who brought me here how come its not them who's gg to ask me questions. but forgot wats their reply. so anyway those other 3 started asking qns like what were u doing at this place and i cant rmb wat other qns, but apparently the whole process took 12 hours. well felt like 12 hours la. then finally they concluded i canot be the murderer cuz im like so guai or whatever, and released me! and so i asked them how to go home, i was like sooooooooo tired, and they actually asked me to take a bus! 107. and i was thinking, oh 107 good at least got straight bus to hougang. then i looked out the window and the nxt building got this sign paya lebar street donno what, but the last thing i thought was im going to find pamela and priscilla, then i woke up.
haha weird dream right! and again with so much clarity i can rmb all the tiny details. donno why my dreams always like that haha.. i must have watched too much tv =/

yesterday i went for the city harvest church orientation at ntu.. ie organised by CHC seniors who are in ntu. im so glad i went! unexpectedly, the ppl there were jus so lame and funny, i clicked immediately with them. haha..we played lots of lame funny icebreaker games, like human connect four and the 洗牛奶 game, which is like the lamest thing i ever played.. then in the afternoon brother darren shared a word, and after that there's this group game, where we had to go all ard ntu completing game tasks to crack a code.. some of the game tasks were really urghs. like helping each other wear lemon soaked socks in 1 min, eating the lemons, catching ants and stuff.. in the end my grp lost hhaa.. but we got the prize for being the most enthu group!! lol.hmm tat proves i can be enthu if i want to. haha..then the seniors there also very crappy, the moment they saw us freshies they were like analysing how we can join in nxt year's parade of schools..so me and the other freshie girls (they also very nice!) were jus nice standing in a row, then the guys came and like, "wa *point* potential flyer, *point* potential flyer, *point* potential flyer!" when it came to me they asked my weight so i said 38, then they say i can be the next Legend of ntu hahah.. legend is the girl who's always at the top tier of the ntu pyramid..they call her legend cuz she's also very lightweight haha. so they said next year we can go up to 4 tiers. haha. dont know leh, i nv tried cheerleading since sec2, and tat time we didnt have to fly here fly there, sounds super dangerous.. then at night was talentime, got drama, songwriting and vocals. i was in the vocals hah. and i didnt noe singing in the choir is sooooo chim! i thought only the professional choirs or sch choirs will have harmonise and sopranao, alto whatever one, and church choir is jus go up and well, sing. but apparently not hah. so yesterday we sang thats wat friends are for, which is actually quite easy to learn, but then they decided to do the harmonise thing, which made it 10 times more chim, but also sounded 10 times better haha..
we also went ard looking at the halls, and their recreation rooms all quite cool.. but the laundry part abit weird cuz everybody jus hang on the balcony railings, like hdb flat like tat.the halls also have their own performance areas, and there's some hall olympiad thing being prepared.. i was thinking maybe its gotta do with the hall camp thingie..anyway, i really had tons of fun yesterday, now my whole body aching..too long nv exercise haha. anyway cant hurt to know more ppl in uni right.. so, ya really glad to have met such a dynamic bunch of ppl before i even stepped officially into ntu. so in future if i have problems there, at least i know who to find haha. ntu ministry =)

im over my short bout of depression too. haha. nth wrong really,few days ago i was feeling depressed cuz i was looking into the mirror and was like why am i so ugly and short!! and i felt super useless and like im invisible to the world and i dont feel like meeting up with ppl cuz they will think im ugly and antisocial. sounds so superficial now, because ya thats wat it is! superficial..and its so qiao that both pastor and brother darren said the same thing : the world looks at appearance, but God looks at the heart. that sometimes u feel lousy abt yourself, but really u dont know how much you can do.. and i went home and something prompted me to read jeremiah 13.. this verse : you have forgotten me and trusted in false gods. and that brought me back to last last sat's cell grp, brother kel said that a god does not have to be an idol, but anything that u place greater importance than God, and that engaging the world doesnt mean you must accept and conform to its views. and i was like, ya hor, why am i suddenly so self-doubting and so obsessed with physical appearances?( i suspect its the stupid 9pm drama cuz it places so much emphasis on looks haha) and so it was like so linked. the message behind is that i shldnt worry too much abt these worldly stuff la. so im like undepressed already. haha

'though knowing well
the danger of these evil worldly pleasures
we still cling to them so firmly
oh how great is our folly!'

ripped this frm pam's blog.. haha ya tats so true.

im going kayaking sometime this week!! me, who has a phobia of water since i was like 8 years old. me, who hates outdoor activities and getting even darker than i am now.. me who never exercised since last year napfa test. and me who vowed never to step into a body of water larger than the bathtub in our toilet (unless a tsunami hits singapore, then obviously, no choice. or when i get baptized. haha) well i dont know what hit me. shizhen and sharon made it sound fun haha..Quote: " got life jacket", "you cant capsize the boat if you wanted to!", "confirm wont get wet one..", "you can jus sit in the centre of a triyak and let the front n back ppl paddle while u look at scenery". haha ok lor, sounds convincing.. hope i really dont drown though..but aiya i really need to overcome my phobia.. i dont even trust cruise ships lor.. cuz i can always envision the ship sinking like the titanic, no matter how safe its supposed to be haha..i rmb one year papa and mommy went on a cruise, before they left i said 'make sure u know where the lifeboats and life jackets are hor..' then papa asked why, and i said, in case the boat sink, and he was like, dont talk nonsense! haha.. paranoia..elaine when are u gg to teach me to swim!! at the rate of global warming i wont be surprised if singapore becomes submerged..
anyway now im considering hall camp instead of faculty camp liao. haha.. im really undecisive haix.. i tink if kailuen dont wan to go, i prob wont go either. hah. so much for enthusiasm.. =x
watched passion of the christ again today~ the last time i watched i totally didnt get the story at all, cuz dont know what they talking abt.. now everything is so clear =)