i am kind of...sad.
arghs i dont know why either, just tat feel veri tired recently.. everyday just passes by so meaninglessly. work, home, work home, yadayada and so on.. weekends also work or do things that make me feel so tired. maybe because im bored with my life. how come other ppl's lives always seem so much more enriching? i think i dont have enough time for myself, for my family. yet, there's nth i can do abt it. unless i quit my job n remain penniless for the rest of the time til august cuz im not getting pocket money anymore.
or maybe its CNY. haha i dont like this festival. cuz i have to go and yingchou ppl. i used to look fwd to my birthday, but not anymore. last time have school holidays, but not anymore. and i doubt i can take leave to go holiday in march cuz my colleague wont be around and someone must be in the offiice, although i feel like a klutz sitting around an empty room. but then again, i dont want to go back to school and face exams, projects and all that rubbish. im so not looking fwd to uni unlike other ppl haha. i've had ENOUGH of mugging and studying.
basically, i just dont know what i want to do in my life. all the things i said i wan to do, i havent done, either because i have no time, i dont feel like at that moment, or i have no money and nobody to do it with me. well, actually there are, but then weird me will suddenly feel like being alone instead. haha..
when a door closes on u, look for another open door.
what if, i dont like the direction the new door is leading to?
what if i still want to open the old door, go down the same route, even though its not the same anymore?
haiya im so sleepy now.. but again cant sleep. how much of our lives is dependent on our own choices? actually most of the time our actions are a consequence of circumstances.. so... just go with the flow lor.

this is going to be a lame post. haha
well jus now i was on the bus on the way to work, and i saw this guy holding an umbrella.. the big big walking stick kind. it wasnt raining so he was using it like, erm a walking stick. somehow, the guy looked damn cool with the umbrella! haha i oso dont noe why, the way he held it jus got alot of style, like he was born to hold an umbrella or something.. (told u this is a lame post!)
ok gotta go back to work. haha =x

yes! Liverpool 2-0 chelsea~~ haha
to all those ppl who keep saying the reds cant make it, bite the dust!!
ok. going off. =/ haha

jus realised i havent blogged from home in a super duper long time~~!! haha..
oh ya i bought my new phone haha.. dunno leh some ppl say nice some ppl say doest really suit me cuz its abit manly.lol..
hmms.. i dunno abt other ppl, but for me life is like a whirl now haha.. jus pass by pass by with veri little time for myself. haha.. i wonder if tats a good thing, cuz dont ppl always say must live life to the fullest? so i guess being busy is a good thing or else i wil jus slack n wilt away haha. actually much as i grumble abt work, i dont tink i wan to go back to sch again!! tis is bad haha.. i still haven gone uni yet....=/
new yr coming. besides the angpow, im not looking fwd to anything haha.

last weekend i went to give out flyers..its really veri tiring to give out flyers!! esp if u do it 4 consecutive days, 10 hours per day with onli half an hr break. hah. my arms n legs are like not attached to my body anymore. wats more is u get to see alot of different types of people around. some are nice but most of the time is realy sucky! i felt like
1. hollow man (ie INVISIBLE. grew up eating glass) cuz ppl ignore u or brush past u like u dont exist,which is quite a bad feeling haha
2. a beggar. im like almost begging ppl to take flyer from me, but think abt it i am GIVING you something, not taking something frm u leh! it really irks me when ppl givew u tat sort of disdainful stare,like u got AIDs or leprosy or something. well im probably more educated than any of them haha. =/
n oh i realised some ppl's hands are heavier than their brains. like their hands like wan to take dont wan to take then at the last minute glare at you for some innane reason. =/ like, har???
n then there r some ppl who dont even HAVE a brain. they will like come very close and walk past excruciatingly slowly(beware those who have body odor) n read every single freaking word on the flyer then dont want to take. duhz. like u wan to read jus take n throw away when u finish reading la.. why make life so difficult must squint here squint there? weird leh..
then of cuz got some ppl will scold u for nth. but still got some nice ones will smile at u la, then i oso made a new friend, my fellow flyer-giver from china haha. aiya but i wont ever give flyers again n take my advice, dont do it!! haha

if i buy a black nokia 7390 for $520, is it very ex??
personally i prefer the pink one. but 2nd hand dont have haha.
n i tink i'll regret it.. i somehow got this gut feeling, n i noe i shld trust this feeling cuz its always quite accurate, but then.. i want a new phone!! im sick of my old one n its stupid faulty keys.
watever, at most i go n trade in after some time haha.
i need money money money.. i tink im becoming a money slave haha. sad i dont wan!!!!!!!!