hmm quite long nv blog seriously haha.. ok this last week has been quite fulfilling..yesterday nite went with weiliang to sentosa for his company dinner..army seems quite fun wat haha..the night where rank doesnt matter. lol ait lame..his company is called foxtrot wing or smth.. reminds me of the comic foxtrot! the event was quite cool, sort of like a wedding dinner on a beach, though the food's not restaurant style but was still quite nice.. then got this officer proposed to his girlfriend..so romantic! and i ate alot of chocolate fondue!! now my pimple outbreak is getting worse.. =x there's this quite big pimple on my face haha.. n it kinda burst. yuck okay enough of yucky stuff..anyway, guess who i met on the beach! Faiz!! kor's vj classmate who always calls me 'daniel's sister!' lol. so qiao he and weiliang were in the same company..n speaking of weiliang, after bugging him the whole nite he still refused to tell me who's his crush frm 4e3 haha.. but then he say he gg to kill kitson for telling me n huiying abt his crush.. then kitson will prob come n kill me. n prob more 4e3 ppl will noe if they happen to read this haha.. really shldnt gossip abt ppl =/
yup then this week i also got go for supper with my parents at changi point..ate satay n drank teh tarik.. really old fashioned and local supper haha.. but i love it. nth beats the traditional =) then tues nite mommy treated us to dinner..ate at the regular 煮炒 place we always go cuz the food there veri nice haha.. we ate chilli crab..haha quite surprised my father now got eat seafood liao..mm i really wan to spend more time with my family before i start uni and move into hostel. but so sad my tuiton hours and papa's afternoon shifts usually means we dont see each other much..so, must make the time worthwhile as michelle says, quality better than quantity.
oh and then some person frm the church of latter day saints called me up.. kinda freaky cuz i dont even noe this person very well i dont noe why i so stupid go n give her my phone number the other day on the mrt.. but she seemed quite nice..until nianying told me their church are like unorthodox or smth.. mormons and jehovah's witnesses..the names sounds scary liao. i was like O_O i didnt noe there are so many versions of christianity. anyway they teach a totally different doctrine.. hope tat person dont contact me again haha..
oh. and i still havent decided if i want to go for the nbs camp!! starting to feel abit antisocial again haha.. n the deadline to apply for e camp is 4th july.. guess prob wont decide in time, ie not gg.. hahah! but aiya very stress leh.. why must they have selection even for orientation camps! ask for your height and weight and picture summore..sensitive issue leh..if i apply to go and they reject me tat'll be so hurting! so, dont apply at all. haha.. but i hope i'll make great friends in my faculty.. dont wan to be anonymous anymore.. ENLARGE MY TERRITORY! =)

《小小》

作词:方文山 作曲:周杰伦 歌手：容祖儿

回忆像个说书的人

用充满乡音的口吻

跳过水坑绕过小村

等相遇的缘分

你用泥巴捏一座城

说将来要娶我进门

转多少身过几次门

虚掷青春

小小的誓言还不稳

小小的泪水还在撑

稚嫩的唇在说离分

我的心里从此住了一个人

曾经模样小小的我们

那年你搬小小的板凳

为戏入迷我也一路跟

我在找那个故事里的人

你是不能缺少的部份

你在树下小小的打盹

小小的我傻傻等


小小的感动雨纷纷

小小的别扭惹人疼

小小的人还不会吻

我的心里从此住了一个人

曾经模样小小的我们

当初学人说爱念剧本

缺牙的你发音却不准

我在找那个故事里的人

你是不能缺少的部份

小小的手牵小小的人

守著小小的永恒

arghss.. i chipped my tooth while eating breakfast today haixxx.. bit straight into the fork.. now one of my front tooth got a chip. so ugly! =(
oh well.. another flaw for other ppl to accept. haha! =/

hii~ this is gonna be a long and evangelistic message.. read on if u're interested to know abt my faith. okay, firstly this post comes abt because i was very impacted by pastor's sermon during the final emerge service. what he said really struck deep into my heart and revived my desire to bring ppl to christ. i can just imagine.. if only marco polo fulfilled his promise to kublai khan to send him 100 missionaries, the whole of asia (then under his empire) cld have been saved instead of turning to idols. if only the two priests were not so obsessed with their laws that they refused to let ghandi into the church.. the whole of india cld have been saved.. and 2 nites ago i had a dream.. a dream of pastor kong telling me abt the new building that can seat 100000 ppl! in singapore. tat gave me two revelations.. one, we're definitely going to get our very own building right smack in an accessible central location so dont have to rent expo anymore, and two, with our current membership of 23000, there are still 77000 ppl that can be saved, and that cld include you. so i die die oso must do something abt it..
ok, so firstly i must state that i believe my God is the one true God. and based on this belief, i know that man cannot be saved by our own works of goodness, but only through and by God's grace. so we may devote our entire life to volunteering, community service, donate to charity, help the poor etc etc, but still not have eternal life.. all these are good deeds of love, and im not saying its bad, cuz obviously they are like, good. but u see, why do ppl have the desire to help others, even when we're self-centred beings? its because it is inherent in us to do so, we're made in the image of God, who is a loving God . he so loved the world he gave his only begotten son to us even though we're sinners. so because we're made in his image, we have the ability to love others, jus that sin has perverted us and made us selfish. by sin i dont mean we're all murderers and criminals and stuff, im saying that even if we dont do such things, there are the seeds within us that may have to potential to make us do these if we are provoked to a certain pt. so tat means we're not pure, cuz jus having the potential means it may happen, and that is already sin.
so anyway, many ppl believe those that live in temples and chapels and pray all day are the most holy, most spiritual and have great faith to want to sacrifice their whole life. yes, they appear to have great faith but hiding behind the walls will not help u to change the world for the better and will not make it go away either. if u've never been tested by the trials of life how do u know if ur faith is reallly that stong? to have influence over others u must first be relevant. yes, donating money, doing good deeds may help a little, but the greatest help u can offer is to give them yourself, ie your time, cuz that is our most valuable possession. u can earn money but u cannot earn time. so your greatest expression of care for another person is to invest your time in them. we're all human beings, not human doings, so wats impt is what we are to others, a close friend, a family member, a trustee.. and not wat we do to them, eg give them money.
next part is gg to be a touchy subject, but i still have to say it.
ok, so why do ppl worship idols designed and shaped by man's hands and proclaim them to be gods? humans are creatures, not creators. eg, have u ever seen a man make another living thing? the most we can do is to clone, and to do that u need an "original copy" to start off with. have u ever seen man make anything out of nothing? no, we need the raw materials, and we enhance it to make something new. thats not creating, thats developing, and that is the cultural mandate God has given us, to make use of what he has given us to cultivate culture and to develop societies. so only God has the ability to make things, and he made each and everyone of us unique and special. the raw materials we have are not manmade,they are God-given. he has also given us the ability to develop these materials, and now we call it technology. so, idols, made of gold and silver, are but just pieces of raw materials shaped in human or animal forms. why do u worship them? because u crave for love, protection, wealth etc.. these idols are actually your perceptions of God, because man has little faith and need something tangible and physical for them to be able to believe in. we rely on our five senses to confirm to us that, yes, this god is real. but there is no need to! i tell u i dont need to know wat God looks like, i can sense him and feel his physical touch so i know he is real. i can pray and speak and sing in tongues. ya i can speak in a language i dont understand! that is proof of the holy spirit. and your underlying desire for a greater power to turn to when facing a crisis is also inherent. cuz we are spiritual creatures, we used to be spiritually connected to God before sin came into eden, and after that the relationship was broken, but we still need to have that connection, but we cannot find the bridge to fill the gap that has been created between man and God so we search our world for something we can connect with, and to many it is their idol gods. but the thing is that, the bridge has been provided since 2000 years ago, when christ died for us on the cross and took all of our sins so that we can be reconciled to God. so that is the good news! whatever u need, God can give u, and in abundance, now all u have to do is to accept him and ask him for it.
so i have to bring this message across, i feel so burdened for the ppl ard me who dont know christ. pastor once said, have u reached out enough to your friends? did u tell them abt the gospel? how wld u feel if u're in heaven and u look into hell and your friends and family are crying out "why didnt u ask me to church one more time so i may have said yes?" and i feel so sad, ive been praying for all my friends and family members' salvation, but God told me that if they themselves dont willingly accept, there's nth my prayers can do to help them. listen im not forcing anyone to convert or what, im jus hoping i may have touched someone with my words. God will not force you to accept him, for he is a God of freedom. he gave us the ability to think for ourselves, a free will to choose, and that is why we;re different frm animals. he gave us the ability to choose, cuz he wants us to love him willingly, not out of compulsion. he made humans, not robots. i guess some ppl will think im crazy or stupid, but i guess u can tell im different liao rite? im the kind if 三分中热度 person, if i can be so convicted abt something and keep going back for almost a year, there must be some truth rite? haha.. and really u gotta come to church to feel the presense of God. if u think im siao already, its ok, cuz your judgement doesnt matter to me. At the end of the day, only God's approval is impt. in fact i dont even think im doing enough for the church.. im not in any ministry though i feel like maybe i;ll join choir next time.. ya, im not eloquent enough to preach the gospel to ppl cuz im scared of rejection, but i can blog it. hah. well i dont noe if u guys can tell, but since becoming a christian some of my attitudes twds life has really changed. i used to be depressed and suicidal alot of times.. ya really, in my old diaries i even have entries that plan my different ways to die haha..because i strove too hard for 100% perfection. A's in evrything i do.but now i know that im not perfect, cuz im not God, but he is there to help me. accepting my failures doesnt mean i am a failure. i used to bear grudges for very very long, but now i think i forgive more easily and say sorry more easily. obviously, i cant love everyone like christ did, but im trying to not dislike ppl the moment i look at them haha. i used to always feel inferior to others, sometimes now i still do, i feel awkward ard ppl, but im not scared of them anymore. cuz greater is He in me than he who is in the world. so i shldnt be afraid to be myself, cuz God made all of us different for a purpose. im also less resistant to changes in my life. rmb the struggle i went thru when i decided to go vj? this time round im less afraid of meeting new ppl, cuz i know life is never meant to be stagnant. as pastor says, the only thing constant in life is change. so life is meant to be difficult, it's a training ground to prepare ourselves for eternity. being a christian does not mean heaven on earth. i still face probs like everyone else, jus that i have someone to depend on in this life, and i know he has promised me heaven in eternity. so after saying so much, dunno if ive impacted anyone, but i'll continue to pray for revivival in my campus, and salvation for my family n friends. my faith is not a religion, it is a relationship with God, and now the trumpet, having been passed down the generations from moses, is in our hands. it is our turn to proclaim the good news to the world. maybe i cannot change the entire world, but im hoping to change my world and all the ppl in it. im happie to be a child of God, and i stand for wat i believe in.

this last weekend has been super duper intense for me haha.. cuz its emerge conference 2007 and my mayday concert!! emerge was so fun, even the queueing part (jasper n his hair phobia hahaa). everyday was jus jammed pack wif activities even though i didnt participate, jus watching them was so exciting. esp the arm wrestling haha.. oh n basketball s'pore vs taiwan.. i forgot who won liao haha..parade of schools (cheerleading) sounds fun..maybe can try nxt yr..and last nite the finale was jus indescribable. congrats to jennifer for winning debate n scriptwriting.. win so much money..haix so envious im like super poor now.. and we got to see so many celebrities for free~ got diya, darren, belinda, vivi wang (ms taiwan), liu geng hong, faye and wayne. and liu geng hong actually proposed to vivi on sat nite!! too bad i missed it haha.. cuz went for mayday concert liao..
and speaking of mayday, their concert jus rocked! lucky i brought a whistle or else sure no voice for sunday emerge haha.. so now mayday has officially become my fav band, second after jay haha.. ah xin is sooooooooooooo cool!!! and the other members like 怪兽 masha, guan you and shitou can play their instuments damn well..power. haha. hope they come back to sg soon..but jay dunno when can have concert haix frm 2004 say until now still haven come..if he comes i die die oso wan to watch!