im slacking again.. =/ but today went to cafe cartel wif pam they all n mugged quite alot.. im gg to finish country wife soon! n arid-semi arid hopefully.. haixx im realli realli tired.. cant wait for all tis exam nonsense to end.. then i'll recycle ALL my notes n stuff.. sure to save at least 10 hectares of rainforest hah. i cant believe how much notes n how many essays i have..=x
then i jus found out tat hu ge (the xian jian guy) had a super bad car accident.. then his female colleague died, and he gotta have surgery n like 100+ stitches! possibly disfigured too.. so kelian!!!!!!!!!! im so sad for him haixxxx..hope he get well soon and at least he's not in life danger or anything.. wa if tat happened to jay i'll jus die. haha. touch wood touch wood..
tonite im gg to mug mug mug again.. i realli realli wan to finish country wife today! hope i can meet my target..

today had gp prelim.. erms overall i tink not veri well done. haha. haix too late to do anything le la.. but dunno why i suddenlyhad brain block cant tink of proper things to write. too tired ba =/
then today i went to pre-order jay's cd. i got the poster liao! yes! haha. then on the way home on the bus something happened tat made me realise singaporean youths realli cannot make it! there was tis amah wif her grocery cart, then she was trying to get up the bus but was struggling wif the cart. the bus stop had a few able bodied sec boys but every single one of them pretended not to notice even though the poor amah was right in front of them. haix sad case. in the end tis uncle n me went to help. then the amah was saying something abt wanting to go to the Oriental. hah i bet alot of ppl forgot, but the Oriental was a building tat occupied the place where heartland mall is now standing.. its been ages n ages since i heard anyone refer to the place as the Oriental liao. if u tink of it its quite sad cuz in maybe 10 years time prob no one wld even know tat such a place existed before.. which is true for many other cases actually, like the old national library and the capitol theatre. hai rather sad to tink tat we've sacrificed quite alot at the expense of development. but oh wells, i guess we have to move on somehow.. the past is past and can never return again..
watever. im gg to hang up my poster liao! hah

today i had an encounter wif a super rude man. me n huiqing were like walking to the bus stop after lit make up so we were just passing tat stupid bin (that isnt a rubbish bin but somehow is placed there for nothing) and tis middleaged rather unsavoury man came rushing past and banged into me and the bin. so then i turned around n said sorry to him 2 times(even though on hindsight i tink its not my fault). then tat fella turned back, scowled and barked "cannot even move ar?!" i was like, excuse me? its u bang into me one lor. i already said sorry liao wat more do u want har? like whatever lor.. i didnt even see him how to move? logically, if u already saw us from a distance and know that i didnt see u so im not gg to move aside cant u use your brain n move first?? wat a numbskull. somemore why must i move for u leh? y cannot u move for me har? the road ur ah gong build one meh. even if its my fault i already apologised what, do u want me to like lay a red carpet for Your Royal Highness to pass thru? =/
somemore today had a long long day wif like so little breaks, so cant realli blame if im reali super exhausted and not in a veri cheery mood right? 3 hours of Wycherly, even though its a comedy, but nevertheless its still written in OLD ENGLISH, can kill one leh. then of all days haf to meet tis kind of person. hah i suddenly thought of a perfect word to describe him: coxcomb! haha i realli like this word frm the book.. sounds veri funny. ya. so i was rather pleased to recall that HE banged into the stupid bin, not me. haha. perfect example of schardenfreude (aiya forgot how to spell le la)
hai i tink i need an anger management course haha. one little thing and i can just feel the anger flare up in me.. scary scary haha.. must be too much stress. gp on monday. haixxxx wish me luck! =x

today we had our last human geog lecture. thanks josey for making a realli wonderful video!
haha n mr josef u forgot one "virgin". i bet im the first person to offer to buy u a paper car haha! n stop calling me n elaine hobbits! one day we'll be taller than u hmmph..
yesterday's tutorial was the most fun one (i tink its cuz its the LAST one) haha. anw here's josey's video of our geogers' farewell dedicated to josef http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fYAqAa1MDE4 its damn funny! haha. hai even though ur teaching n mr pang's differ like heaven n earth, i tink for a new teacher you're not bad la. at least ur lessons are more interesting than someone else's. haha. n u realli do look like patrick frm spongebob =P
ay, wish me luck for geog la. im gg to seriously need it.
i tink a55 geogers rock =)

tonite is a nite of emotions!

i feel guilty because my fren had an operation n i didnt even noe it (sorrie huiying!)
i feel upset because i've once again put off doing my lit essay
i feel unproductive because i onli managed to finish 2 econs topics today n here i am blogging
i feel demoralised because i've been doing realli badly for my s paper n other subjs when prelim is so near
i feel so helpless because my revision is gg nowhere
i feel offended because my frens keep saying their As are by luck (yeah right)
and then i feel bad for feeling tat
and i feel super super tired of tis marathon
and i feel sian-ed cuz there's sch tmr
and i feel depressed because of something
but i feel happie tat jay's new album is coming out!! =)
and i feel proud tat i finished reading book of Genesis of the Old testament!
and i feel super glad tat i finished ALL my math tutorials haha

haiya watever. jus a random post haha. take no notice of me and my deranged brain
happiness is just shutting out all the bad stuff in the world

im so tired!!! one week hols realli do alot of things.. wrote 2 lit essays, studied 1 lit book, finished 2 maths tutorials, mugged for econs test, did 2 econs case study, 2 essay plans, finished lithology(finally!!) now need to mug hydro all over again for the stupid geog test urghs. and still managing to find time to borrow a storybook, watch tv, play wif the pigs, blog and go to church n bible study class. ya im quite proud of myself haa! but.. still need to study faster i tink.. im nv gg to start maths in time..! arghsss i realli hope i can make it.. jiayou everyone!

im back again..
hahas..i am finishing my lit essay!!
which means i have like 2 more to go. =/
must admit its realli easier to read when i blog in verse form and not prose form haha
for once hy is right! =)

its on quiet nights like this that makes u feel kind of lonely and lost
and you start to rememory
and repressions dont work anymore
but its ok, hope comes with uncertainty..
so i shall go to sleep wif hope!

somehow i tink i type cheemer things when i blog like that..
cuz singlish doesnt seem to work in this form haha
hmm.. gg to sleep le la

today finally met up with muskies!
haha (new format of blogging according to huiying who says she likes it this way)
went to heartland mall! haha another non-mugging day hmmphs
im so gg to die for prelims..
haiya actually i got nth to blog abt..
i just dont feel like doing my lit esasy as usual
im thinking of negative things again haiz

nvm nvm.. i shall repress~

oh ya, sunday i went city harvest church
its such a BIG church! 22000 members?!
but i realli like pastor kong.
hmm his sermon that day realli struck me at my vulnerable spot haha
"you know who you are, you dont have to prove to anyone who you are"
"believe that you can be someone great"
yup, that was the encouragement i needed
n i went home n did my math tutorial successfully haha
huiying i find stats so difficult!!

i wrote a song today haah
was feeling kinda sian
wonder why i can have inspiration for songwriting but not for my lit essay!!
i need a brain transplant hah
mine is killing me

guess how many perverts/madmen a suay person like me can meet in 2 hours? ans:3
today my mission was to go hg mall and pay phonebill, but somehow or other i keep meeting strange weird ppl.. firstly on the bus there was this super duper pervertic 40++ man who was sitting on the opposite aisle from me, and he looked kind of mentally unstable. ya anyway, he just kept leaning forward and staring at me! damn scary la, like helllo? u might as well just come on n stick ur face right in front of me can? i was rather freaked out but cldnt change seats cuz that would mean walking down the aisle. oh n the most most despicable thing was, all the while he kept touching his well, there. ya sick right. so after i reached the interchange i just walked damn fast hoping to shake mr pervy off. then i was abt to cross the road but the green man was blinking la. so just when i put my foot on the road it turned red (talk abt suayness), so i quickly stepped back. then as the car closest to me drove past, in the passenger seat this 20+ year old guy made a face at me! its like so random.. and then after i successfully reached the singapore post place n paid my bills and was walking out, this uncle (whom i have seen often in hg mall and he's actually abit crazy one) came up to me n said he struck 4D and asked me to help him go collect the money.. = =
after tat i basically just rushed home asap.
weird day..