a levels in like one week!! argh somebody help me i cant seem to absorb the stuff i studied..havent touched econs in 3 weeks.. human geog barely started.. still got urban geog, econ geog and tourism.. phys left arid and semi arid and atmosphere!! tats ALOT if u haven realised.. lit is hopefully somewhat better haha i read 5 books, left the shakespeare one.. but i havent realli gone round to memorising quotes and reading all e readings and character and plot analysis..sharks basically i've been jus reading jus to remember the stories again. haix. hmm maths leh, i've been practising abit.. but still alot of half-baked concepts dunno.. like ap, gp and whatnot.. im wondering if i shld jus give up a few topics and zoom in on those tat i noe.. cuz its kinda too late to try figuring out those tat i realli dont noe..like, integration. curve sketching. and other rubbish. i tink i'll jus memorise the formulas and try to smoke thru as usual hah ie squeezing out every possible mark out of every question without actually completing the entire qn.. ya realli, i look thru my past maths papers, i nv realli completed entire qns before.. alot of blanks all over, but still managed to squeeze a C out haha.. so i suppose tats a good enough strategy ba.. =/
okok gotta go back to mug geog le.
as of today, official countdown to my freedom is: 29 days!

last nite was the nite insects invaded my home.
at around dinner time, a huge bee flew into my flat and started terrorising everybody (mainly me) by flying all over and making tat horrible bzz bzzz sound. it wld disappear for awhile and suddenly start doing it again. by around 1030, while i was mugging econs, i tot it was gone. all of a sudden, something hit the fan and on the rebound flew straight at me! it was tat freaking bee.. of cuz i screamed and literally fell out of my chair haha..after tat my father decided to terminate it wif Baygon. it lay on e floor writhing like some gassed soldier. a whack wif the newspaper put him out of his misery. i tot tat was the end.. but no, the night had jus begun! after tat ard 11 plus a beetle landed right on top of my wages notes. usually i wld have freaked out, but last nite i some how jus rolled up my market failure notes and whacked it straight into the wall and right into the middle of its next life haha. beetle gone! peace for awhile..
next came a lizard. it crawled out frm behind a chinese painting on e wall and started making tat tock-tock-tock sound.. somehow i felt it was gloating cuz i was mugging like siao and there it was singing to itself hmmph! then at ard 12 plus, a huge cockroach appeard out of nowhere! it someow landed on the same chinese painting where the lizard was. then began a rather interesting battle between Mr Lizard and Mr Cockroach. apparently they were fighting over who got to stay on the painting? haha
Mr Lizard swished its tail. Mr Cockroach waved its feelers at him. Then Lizard made somemore clucking noises. Cockroach flapped his wings. again tat bzz bzzz sound! meanwhile i was covering myself wif econs notes and trying to inch my way out of the dining room b4 they noticed me. no such chance.. as soon as i started moving the cockroach started flying all over! so i jus ran faster than i ever ran and managed to get to my room safely. tis morning i havent seen either of them, and im sittting right below the chinese painting haha!
so, my house seems seriously in need of pest control.. i realli realli hate insetcs and four-legged reptiles or watever a lizard is! no, i dont appreciate tat technically by sheer numbers insects own the world and not humans. and no, i dont appreciate the fact tat you're full of protein and some scientists are actually proposing tat we start eating insects, as though its some fifth agricultural revolution tat can solve famine in africa or something. yuck i rather eat vegetables.. but insects? never!! i cant stand them. pls get out of my house!!!

farewell assembly today! haha officially grad frm vj liao.. at the assembly i realised its the last time im gg to sing the national anthem n say the pledge together wif other students.. i tink its quite significant, given we've been doing tat every day for like the past decade or more.. my fav part of the program was of cuz the teachers' performance, cuz got my funky mr teo! haaa he looks so damn cool wif the tucked out shirt, hanging loose tie, blue spiked floppy hair n the electric guitar!! not bad ar mr teo.. u shld wear tat instead of keeping your kind of nerdy side parting n tucked in shirt leh.. and after 2 years ive nv seen him in a shirt thats not blue, white or grey. wat happened to the pink shirt u said u have?? haha.. nevertheless i realli like mr teo alot cuz he's the onli person who cares alot abt our class(draw more cartoons!) and can somehow make gp lesson slack, yet fun and enriching(sometimes). n i nv knew u can sing quite well and (gasp) do brakedance! heh after A lvls me n qiuyi will continue gg back to vj to harrass u! of cuz i also wanna thank our other long suffering teachers like mrs lee, ms tham n josef (big idiot didnt come today haha), the lit gang, n mrs wee(though i still hate maths like the plague haha). i guess teaching an arts class is rather difficult n exasperating ba.. so thanks alot for all your efforts!
oh yeah another super funny performance was the "inter-jc" mugging competition haha.. tat was super hilarious though the house comm was abit, urm mean to the other jcs haha..better not go into details in case ppl get upset..=p
yup, so overall today was quite a fun day. mass dances, crapping wif teachers, funny programs n videos, taking lots of weirdo photos, collected our certs n stuff, plus some souvenirs (i tink the school ring is quite nice, pity cant fit cuz i got fat short fingers haha)
mm.. leaving vj is abit nostalgic i guess, but i dont tink i'll suffer from chronic vj-withdrawal symptoms. haha. nevertheless, i tink overall vj is quite ok, i like the sch song! haha. oh ya, n mrs chan (principal) is leaving too.. new guy is some superintendent frm hwa chong! dunno wat will vj be like in a few years time haha.. (ang moh sch meets cheena principal. quite an interesting prospect).anw wish mrs chan all the best for her future la. thanks for being such a slack principal haha.
oh! n not forgetting the ppl like bookshop auntie.. thanks for always talking crap wif me and sewing up my soft toy keychain haha.. i'll make sure my kor brings lots of tidbits frm thailand back for u haha. n hot drinks stall auntie- although u always got chou lian, but i tink i managed to make u smile at least twice right haha! tats quite an achievement i tink. n the photocopy shop aunties.. why always so bad mood?? is it the ozone? u're like forever making me wait for ages lor.. but nvm, i tink w/o u guys the vj photocopy shop will nv be the same haha.
wa today is like dedication day haha.. ok next is my frens-- elaine n qiuyi thanks for always motivating me to study when i see u all mug haha.. though i can nv be as good as u all one la. n huiqing, haha cabbage aka bao cai! your cynical remarks always cracks me up lor. n thanks for always listening to my grumbles. mm ryan. u're such a funny guy haha.. stop being so racist k? n your squeals of laughter and catty bitchy comments always makes my day haha. as long as the subject of your barb is not me la. plus jolene and gang, and meredith-- hearing to your exaggerated story telling is really can relieve stress haha. oh n meredith n josey u all can open massage parlour liao. n junyi the mega ah beng-- pls walk n talk properly! haha. stop trying to stress me by telling me how many math papers u finished and how much geog u finished can! lol. ok, so wish everybody good luck, happy mugging n all the best for A lvls! we'll all get 4 As. haha fat hope..=/
mm..guess tats all la.. gotta go practise my maths. nil sine labore!
ohya hope ppl will go for open house tmr haha. frm wat i see the preparations like abit sketchy?! it better be fun like previous years lor, or else we lose our reputation for being the craziest jc liao. haha. viva la victoria!

haiii wat a sad mid autumn festival ar.. im sick, my mom's sick, my dad's sick, my bro's in some ulu camp and there's not even a moon in sight. clouds and smoke everywhere.. cant stand the haze, its making me cough like mad, my eyes are itchy, my throat is itchy, my skin is itchy, and every breath smells like someone's been barbequeing for the past week and forgot to extinguish the fire.. smoke smoke smoke.. which kinda reminds me of how i smoked thru my prelims haha.. my results suck, lit is like a goner.. i jus dunno why i cant do lit. its not like i dont study, i realli do, but no results.. cannot means cannot, which part of tat cant u ppl understand? and human geog too.. arghs its too horrible for words haha. and econs.. watever happened to my case study? my essays? a total mess..and maths dont even need to say ba. sians.. trying to mug is like a futility..cant absorb. even if i know all the points on my fingertips, so wat? when i look at the paper sometimes i blank out, sometimes wat i write jus isnt wat they want. im trying to psyche myself up, tell myself i can do it, maybe not straight As like elaine, but it gets depressing sometimes.. is anyone feeling the same too??

midautumn night, moonless night.
smoky haze gets in your eyes
cant see no stars, cant see no light
is my future going to be this dark?
little vampires come out to dance
cuz only the dead have time for life
while the living are but lifeless tombs
more dead than the undead
dancing under the invisible moon
as the world spins itself to hell
well at least they're having fun
while the rest of us stay home to rot
rutting among books and notes
can u see the words flying all around
like the swirls of smoky dust
nothings getting in my head
god im cooking up a silly poem at midnight
wish i got the mood to mug
little vampires come suck my blood
save me from this hot choking night
the dreariness of life (books numbers essays!)
worse than the peltering of november rain
all dreams awashed down the drain.

cant believe its october already.. i gotta start mugging soon.. still havent get into the mood, which is kinda bad haha.. hopefully the series of mock exams will spur me to study.. i know i will de.. there's no victory without a fight, and i will fight. and try not to die in the process haha. but sometimes its jus so tiring la.. take a quote from Beloved, the world doesnt stop playing checkers jus because u are one of the pieces.. sometimes i realli feel like there's too much things going on, and i dont know where to start and i wish i cld jus stop, sit down and smell the flowers instead of exhausting myself in this meaningless rat race..whatever happened to my past dreams and ambitions? now when we're so close to the end, i dunno wat i want to do after this..but i decided, i dont wan to feel discouraged anymore. i want to be dissatisfied! cuz tat means there is something more in my life to be achieved.. maybe i dunno wat that is now, but i will find it. i will find the purpose in my life..