today went shopping wif betty.. it was quite a lame trip haha (agree betty??) first we went ps for abt one hr, then walked to paradiz centre wanting to sing kbox.. on the way there we stopped to apply for jobs, then when we reached paradiz, decided dont realli feel like singing liao, so we applied for a kbox job instead haa.. then walked to cathay..decided to watch movie, but none of e movies nice. so we walked back to ps, trying to buy a copy of straits times to see the classified jobs and get the movie listings. but no straits times available ANYWHERE! sad. so we took train to cineleisure, finally got horror movies screening! but the timings all wrong!! crap.. so again walked ard aimlessly, then go taka, go ngee ann city, walked on e streets and effectively wasted the whole day trying to find something to do. hahah.. still veri tired after all that "hiking" around.. so im home super early! haha.. went kovan to look for more jobs.. in total i applied for 4 i tink.. kbox, this fashion, some watch shop, and precious thoughts.. all sales de hmm.. it seems realli hard to get a job if u dont have prior experience hor... but theres always a first time right?! everybody want exp, then where do those w/o exp find jobs?? wat rubbish. k dont noe wat to do now haix.. maybe i'll go watch dvds..

last nite i dreamt i got back my gp paper! gosh i never ever dream abt exams de... must be influenced by pam n krys they all haha.. but it was terrible! i didnt dream i got the result slip. i dreamt i got back the entire paper itself.. n so can see where exactly i went wrong.. apparently my essay was off the point of equal rights and too feminist. haha i hope its not true... aye watever.. its nice to dream abt something realistic for a change, considering all my dreams are usually very absurd.
yesterday i went to sing kbox with isabel. can u believe it we sang all the way frm 1230 to 7 pm!! n cuz onli 2 of us, so its really nonstop. my throat is dead now haha. hope i still have voice to go with betty on friday.. but its really fun! haa
today i cleared out my room.. i threw like 10 tons of stuff haha.. super tired arghs. kk my show feng yun is starting now. gotta watch!!

November

The month of the drowned dog. After long rain the land
Was sodden as the bed of an ancient lake,
Treed with iron and birdless. In the sunk lane
The ditch - a seep silent all summer -

Made brown foam with a big voice: that, and my boots
On the lane's scrubbed stone, in the gulleyed leaves,
Against the hill's hanging silence;
Mist silvering the droplets on the bare thorns

Slower than the change of daylight.
In a let of the ditch a tramp was bundled asleep;
Face tucked down into beard, drawn in
Under his hair like a hedgehog's. I took him for dead,

But his stillness separated from death
Of the rotting grass and the ground. A wind chilled,
And a fresh comfort tightened through him,
Each hand stuffed deeper into the other sleeve.

His ankles, bound with sacking and hairy band,
Rubbed each other, resettling. The wind hardened;
A puff shook the glittering from the thorns,
And again the rains' dragging grey columns

Smudged the farms. In a moment
The fields were jumping and smoking; the thorns
Quivered, riddled with the glassy verticals.
I stayed on under the welding cold

Watching the tramp's face glisten and the drops on his
coat
Flash and darken. I thought what strong trust
Slept in him - as the trickling furrows slept,
And the thorn-roots in their grip on darkness;
And the buried stones, taking the weight of winter;
The hill where the hare crouched with clenched teeth.
Rain plastered the land till it was shining
Like hammered lead, and i ran, and in the rushing wood

Shuttered by a black oak leaned.
The keeper's gibbet had owls and hawks
By the neck, weasels, a gang of cats, crows:
Some stiff, weightless, twirled like dried bark bits

In the drilling rain. Some still had their shape,
Had their pride with it; hung, chins on chests,
Patient to outwait these worst days that beat
Their crownd bare and dripped from their feet.


now is the month of november.. rainy season!! rain rain almost everyday, so i thought this poem is super fitting for this month haha.. but i like rain.. not those with thunder and lighting, but the light, drizzly, england kind of rain.. cuz i like the melancholic feel of it haha.. has a sort of poetic tragedy to it.. n it makes it so nice to sleep! haha.. so guess im more like the tramp rather than the modern speaker. i dont mind sleeping in the ditch with the light rain. it sounds super comfortable.. provided i have a blanket and pillow, my bolster and my stuffed toy haha. gosh after exams my brain has too much space, so i have to blog abt such seemingly unrelated topics. i hope it starts raining now, so i can sleep in the nice chilly atmosphere...zzzzz
but! stupid ted hughes. i realised i misquoted this poem alot alot of times in my essay! sharks i quoted wrongly, and whats more i said they were from "Rain". hai i hope those angmohs over at cambridge will be half asleep sipping their chamomile tea while listening to the patter of the rain blowing across their moorlands instead of diligently cross-referencing hughes' to spot where we quoted wrongly or from the wrong poem.. haha. but i hope im not the onli one, and at least i bothered to go n memorise quotes, never mind they're all jumbled and mixed up, and im not even throwing away the book lor! i think thats doing hughes a big favour liao. haha. yaya gg to sleep now..

my exams are over!! haha.. but actualli after soooo long theres not much difference anaymore.. yesterday went ps wif the girls to buy materials for huiying's present.. i hope it will turn out super nice haha.. ive got alot of things to do this following week.. but hor.. now that exams over like abit.. urm.. sian. haha! okok i noe im crazy ive been dreaming for this day since dont know when, and now that its here i dont noe wat to do.. whack me! haha.. i tink im gg back to sleep. =/

i think sometimes ppl ought to learn when n how to shut up.
"good is knowing when to stop." thats so true man.
cuz u cant jus say something that hurts, and pretend nth has ever happened. u can pretend, but i cant.


on another note, lit today was ok.. at first my mind blanked out n i cldnt think of one single poem that talks about nature. haha.. luckily i breathed n stayed calm for awhile, then the words began to flow.. so amazing ive written so many essays it jus comes as second nature already haha.. n guess wat i did all essays for all my 6 books.. not a single context qn haha.. hopefully they wont think i cant do close text analysis or something..but i really do suck at textbased. anw already dont have exam mood, so i jus went in n sort of jus wrote watever i cld think of on the spot..i actually had abit of fun writing haha.. esp the glass menagerie one.. i havent even talked abt lighting! n already more than 4 pages n out of time. sharks. i tink i will enjoy lit more if it werent an A lvl subj haha.. the books r realli quite nice to read.

i am so in a slacking mood right now. haha..
anybody wanna watch horror movie wif me sometime after my exams??
i've got alot of things i wan to do!!
1. throw all my notes n stuff
2. watch movies
3. go kbox n sing all the jay songs
4. borrow lots of storybooks
5. go shopping
6. watch lots n lots of tv n youtube videos
7. find a job to get money
8. meet up wif all my longlost frens
9. go holiday!!
10. go to escape.. i've got this urge to take the water slide since sept, although im always super scared of the rides haha
11. go to my frens house n slack like hell
12. bbq? i have a craving for bbq sotong frm taiwan!! haix
13. spend more time wif my neglected family haha
14. i might decide to start gg jogging haha (elaine dont choke)
15. play comp everyday n dl all the new songs
16. volunteering!
17. i feel like playing mahjong
18. i wan to go to the beach to look at stars
19. i wan to go back to vj to harrass mr teo haha
20. i want to go to maldives. lol. fat hope..

if only you would want to do all these with me, i will be happie for the rest of my life.

today the s6 ppl finish their exams. after human geog they changed to their home clothes n promtly threw their uniforms into the rubbish bin. haha. apparently they're gg to slack the day off at vivocity..
E-N-V-Y. haha..

10 more days!! 10 more 10 more 10 more.........................
its so frustrating to know tat jus NEXT WEEK　i'll be freer than i'll ever be, yet it seems like an eternity away. haix. i shall refrain from reading anyone's blog from now till 24th. such a horrible torture to read everyone's jubilant cries of celebration while i mug on. haha.
read the newspaper yesterday.. GST going to be raised to 7% next year.. gosh!! tats alot leh!! wats the government thinking of?? havent they already realised income inequality is worsening? dont they know that consumption taxes are regressive?? so wats the logic behind increasing gst to help the poor? maybe they'll subsidise the poor, but wat abt the middle income ppl like us?? we're not as rich as ppl like wee shu min, and we dont get subisidies like the really poor ppl.. so we end up worst. i tink i'd better buy all the things i want now before the prices go up haha. besides, u raise gst when the economy is doing well, but when the economy slows down, can it be adjusted downwards please? i hope i dont get sued for slandering the govt or something haha. i just feel that its so urgghhh to pay higher and higher taxes.
aiya. going back to mug econs.
10 more days 6 papers to go! wa cant believe after so long i effectively only finished slightly more than half of my exam. groan.

whew im right in the midst of my exams.. tmr onwards is the worst week.. i cant wait for it to be over!! 14 days more.. so envious of those ppl who end uber early. pls dont come n tell me u're having a blast at some disco ok? i might decide to maul u the nxt time i see u anywhere haha. so tired!! im shagged!! seriously, 2 whole yrs of mugging jus for this exams, hope i can pull thru the last lap... so sad for my maths..wat a big screw up.. where did mr brain go? dissolved into coconut juice the moment i stepped into the exam hall huh? but hopefully as yan ning says, last time she tot she did super badly but somehow managed to get A! haha.. i wish. but well at least maths is over! i wanted to dump the stuff on wed, but my mom says better keep-for now.. on the 24 im gg to throw EVERY single maths thing i ever owned in my life. n all the other geog econs lit junk. cant wait! my hands are itching already. hah..
oh my bro's back for 2 weeks~! quite nice to see him after like 4 mths haha, though im quite used to being alone liao. but of all days he came back jus the day after maths, so i cldnt get him to teach me some last minute desperate math exam tactics haha.. but i tink he prob forgot everything liao.. wat a shiok life he's having in thailand! its like a long term holiday- provided by the SAF! brilliant choice, kor.. i tink alot of NS men will die to be in his place haha.. he's leaving on 23, again one day jus before end of my exam!! arghs, cannot send him off, cannot celebrate tog oso haha. hai nvm la, see u in july next yr then.
im sick of being cooped up at home.. i wanna go out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!