today our class got lectured again. cuz we were planning to pon college day.. im wondering are we realli such troublesome ppl? why suddenly all the teachers start hounding after us? haha.. college day.. according to mrs chan, its an opportunity to show the world that we are not defined by our skirt lengths.. =/ apparently today some newpaper reporter staked out at the bus stop to take snapshots of us.. wat a stupid fuss one -chi bao mei shi zuo- fella can cause. great now we're realli gg to have routine uniform checks urghs. anw back to college day.. i dont tink all of us lining by the roadside cheering on some guest of honour is gg to project us as the most enthu sch in the universe right? summore we're gg to have a rehearsal! duh. but as mrs low says, its our obligation to the sch.. in any case im gg cuz i dont have a choice and i dont wan my national day holiday taken away so i can do cwo in sch..
personally i dont tink i have much loyalty to the sch haha.. sch spirit? maybe onli during the soccer tournaments.. its because somehow i feel the ppl here are too.. aiya dont even noe how to describe. like eg one of my friend ( actualli i dont wan to talk bad abt ppl behind their backs, but this has kind of pissed me off) promised to lend me something ( dont wan to elaborate too much la) and then at the last min she decide she dont feel like coming sch and ask me to find someone else. n its not the first time she does tat. i mean i noe its jus a small thing but to me its a matter of promise. i hate it when ppl break their promises.. if u cant keep them, then dont give ur word right. n its not onli me, another of my fren is upset wif her too.. prob is she always has this nonchalant attitude. sadly my views of her are beginning to change. and another incident today. i was talking to another fren and she was telling me abt which UK uni she;s gg to.. so i said if she realli go can i visit her and stay in her hostel and have a tour of england.. and she was like sure u can sleep on my FLOOR．maybe im too sensitive but i take tat as an insult. so, the ppl in this sch.. dont realli make me wan to bond wif them..except for a few realli good frens and im glad i have them , but otherwise, if i ever see any of u other ppl in NUS or NTU (but i bet i wont cause majority of them are gg overseas) dont be surprised if i act as though i dont noe u. friendships in jc..im realli starting to doubt it.　

this morning aka 2 am. , we sent my bro off to thailand liao.. he's prob already settled down over there so hope everythings fine lor.. mm abit sad la cuz i tink i will miss his crapping alot.. and his maths genius brain~! haha... haiz after one yr dunno wat will happen hor.. by then i'll be in uni liao seems so far away.. anw i was veri proud of myself cuz i didnt cry! haha.. keep telling myself cannot cry cannnot cry and i realli didnt cuz otherwise it'll be like so weird wif all his sirs there and then veri awkward. but on the way home a little bit la. but maybe him leaving can be a good thing after all.. i shld start learning to be more independent. haha. sort of like a new chapter new journey kind of thing.. but i realli hope he'll have fun and be fine and so will us in singapore. see u in 1 yrs time kor. =)
oh n yesterday our whole class got punished cuz we mass ponned pe haha.. seems like we're quite notorious now.. but luckily its not as bad as we all expected cuz mr tan didnt yell at us (tats realli a big shock cuz he's like the fiercest guy i ever saw and normally he wld have chewed our ears and heads off and swallowed the bones too but he didnt! prob in a good mood so we heng haa). wats more the pe dept didnt make us run like 10000 rounds and they also didnt call us onstage to humiliate us like they threatened to do.. so basically we jus ran a few rounds and then retook napfa test.. kinda slack actualli.. and because its not in the freaking hot afternoon, even i didnt mind pe haha.. seriously pe lessons must be conducted in the morniing only!
then today, when mrs chan started talking at assembly abt discipline i tot she was gg to shoot our class.. but it turned out that some "concerned member of the public" complained to the minister abt vj girls wearing too short skirts.. and he even took pics for "evidence"! its like so sick la take pic of girls skirts?! he prob was ogling at some girl and jus wanted to cover himself up la.. i tink tats an intrusion of privacy lor.. pervertic stalker hmmph. summore he even described us as "sex symbols". wth la stupid MCP. and its not like we're the onli sch ma.. look at other jcs la.. n he's the one who wants to look wat then still wan to complain. bu shuang u dont see lor. so now we got like uniform checks and they are like forcing us to either alter or buy new skirts.. im absolutely not gg to buy new uniforms when theres like only a few mths of sch left! summore they want us to wear belt! pls lor nobody on earth wears the sch belt anymore its like back to the 1980s leh.. watever.. haha
dont care la

ifailedmyhumangeog. haha.. hmm one of my worst results for geog ever.. i always tot i cld do well in geog.. well, maybe not anymore..today josef remarked tat we were not geography students, but students who happened to study geography.. i suppose its true la.. after so many years of geog education, i still cant anaylyse, compare, discuss nor write abt the limitations and usefulness of data. and i didnt noe where on earth china lies on the world map, and mistook its eastern coast for a border wif some nonexistent country..bleahs. and i cant remember simple definitions either.. like getting urban growth and urbanisation mixed up. or forgetting wats fertility rate and mortality rate (this part was super funny cuz josey tot mortality meant the number of lives, and josef was like, mortality is die! Die! DIE!!!! *while stabbing exasperatedly at the table*) so, when i got back the script i was like searching for marks to count haha..9/20 for DRQ. esssay 15. i hope my phys geog can at least help me to pass la.. but the weird thing was, i found the whole situation immensely amusing..haha. everybody did quite badly.. and its so bad that we all thought our results were the funniest thing around for years. haha..=/ sort of reminds me of Sixo in "Beloved" when he laughed when he was burnt alive and hung. i jus so love that book haha.
prelims in 49 days! wat to do.. revision.. doesnt seem to be of any help. and kor gg thailand nxt wednesday.. and he'll not come back for one year! i dont wan him to go haiz...although i nv say but im realli realli gg to miss him alot alot.. who's gg to teach me maths now? whos gg to tell lame jokes and crap stories to cheer me up? whos gg to encourage me when i feel so totally wiped out.. he said he;s worried abt my maths.. ya, me too..im worried abt everything. like my results. like wats gg to happen when he;s gone. like will i be able to take care of my parents. like can i cope with everything. can i make my own decisions and all..he said believe in yourself.. but how to when eveything looks so bleak? and i kind of cant imagine.. when he comes back what will he be like? will he still be the same brother? by then i'll be in uni liao.. realli cant imagine haha..
well.. hope eveything works out fine..

poor germany haiz..out of world cup liao.. why all the teams i support all out de.. nth left to watch for le la.. its so unfair... to lose at the dying seconds of the match argh.. 2 min can score 2 goals.. better than liverpool! haha..realli shows the unpredictability of life hah. i waited more than 2 hrs for a goal but it turned out to be Italy's!! i shld have jus continued to slp haha.. oh wells.. hopefully can at least get a third place ba.. go germany!
today i got back my maths common test!! i dint fail i didnt fail i didnt fail...!! so happie though is still a goddamned C.. im never gg to get out of the C-curse arrghs. but better than E or F tat i expected la haha., must be content. i give up le la at vj i can nv be the best de. but maybe its better this way.. at least i still have a goal to strive for.. whereas at the top its so easy to fall down. so ya, quite happie la