im sick!!! sad sad... got cough, flu, sore throat, ulcer n cramps.. haizz// later gg to see doc le.. muz be because of tt fish n co treat last saturday.. ooh but the seafood platter was great!! no regrets haha.. (ps yx i dun wan pizza le i wan fish n co!!) hahahz.. yaso todae no need go sch!! hahaz.. tonite is college day.. dun feel like gg oso.. ask me to sit in e hall watching ppl receiving prizes for e whole nite...yeuggh. i rather stay home watch tv.. summore tt minister guy coming.. so gotta put up a show n cheer n watever. we even supposed to haf a rehearsal in the afternoon!! goodness.. i still dun understand why each time got some minister person come the sch muz act so fake.. last time xm lidat, now still the same. hah. i tink even w/o all tt false buzz tt minister still can feel the sch spirit one wat..so why make life difficult?
aniwae, mi taiwan fren coming tis saturday!! hahaz., dunno wat she'll be like.. but tt day her mum called all the way frm taiwan!! to chat wif mi mom.. n she seems quite nice.. hope her daughter not those dao dao kind..oh n btw last fri the racial harmopny day concert was soooooooo damn embarrassing!!! tt stupid malay dance.. i tink the whole hall shook wif laughter.. i wont be surprised if it caused a minor earthquake haha.. n elaine they all had to shout mi name THAT loudly hor.. n i nearly dropped tt stupid umbrella!! aniwae i tink i looked gross in tt costume. well end up we were laughing as we danced oso hahaz// so humiliating. but mi mom sae ttz wat entretainment is abt. bringing joy n laughter to others.. haha she sounded quite profound when she said tt..
n guess wat.. i got allot of hw haven do!! cant finish no mood to do... so tired of gg sch la. lecs n tuts make me sleepy... n the canteen food is so sad case. no wonder i get sick la.. everyday eat cup noodles n junk food. hai. k la gg see doc alreadi.

tmr im going to die. how how how????
its e racial harmony concert n we haf to do malay dance!!
crap la.. tink im going to juz die of humiliation onstage!! =X
haha.. but then the vj taiwwan immeersion ppl all veri nice.. cant wait for e taiwanese ppl to come =)
haiz i monday need to retake napfa test.. sianz.. tink i'll fail again
n then haf to take again n again
n again........ grrrrrrr..... cant stand pe
except tt for usual lessons we r playing floorball. ttz fun haha.. rmb last time in xms play wif e 4e3 girls everybody scream n scream haha.. miss those days..
but xms 60th anniversary coming.. everybody muz go hor!! seeya guys there
yaya, aniwae tmr i getting back mi last two subj results..e teachers realli mark damn slow/ the sci fac ppl got back all like 1 wk ago lor.. but aniwae mi results not veri good la.. math got C, gp got b4 (tt marker criticised mi essay so much i cant even see what i was writing haha) n luckily econs got A . at first i tot can depend on geog.. but got back e human component todae.. quite bad hahaz.. so no hope le la.. tmr getting back lit n phys geog.. but then i haf to leave early to prepare for tt malay dance,., so cant see paper haizz/,

i got a C for math!!!!!! yay.. hahaz thank goodness.. i aimed for C hahaz.. cuz i noe i can nv get A or B for math de la.. so quite happie.. but if only i nv get tt 6 marks careless marks!! needed juz 3 more marks to get a B.. but oh well.. we gotta learn to be content.. =)
juz now went for a short trip to some changi business centre.. i still cant figure out how tt DSC thing is linked to biz club.. so weird.. n i didnt understand the company's motive oso haha. but watever.. tt was boring
then went to PS for a short while wif elaine.. she was buying flowers for her concert tonite.. but the flowers like not veri nice de lehz.. in the end pick tulips haha..
aiya ok la nth else to blog.. veri sleepy i go n nap awhile le..

i had a nightmare last nite!! i dreamt i was locked up in a madhouse!! ok let me start frm e beginning... somehow i had a younger sister, and she apparently commited some crime n was brought to court. weirdly enough the court was held at the mental hospital itself =X (oh the place is not the imh.. it looks diff) anniwae i testified for mi sister, then the stupid judge decided that i was mentally unstabke n wanted me locked up in the mental hospital!! so i protested n protested to no avail n got shoved into a room full of screaming, yelling, hyperactive mad kids!! by then my new motto in life was to get out n sue the court.
aniwae, soon my sister was brought in as well n i went to talk to her abt vanessa, a girl whom we both hate but i dunno who she is in reality. cuz i had seen her coming out of the next ward while i was struggling wif the police hah. btw the ward was pretty nice.. like a chilldren play room with a huge bed. oh n the commong uniform was blue swimming costumes!!! GROSS GROSS GROSS!
oh n u wont guess how many ppl i saw in the mental hospital!! i saw (seriously no offense sorrie) my friend huiqing, n jamie (the xms one, now in vj too) n some other ppl tt were frm other classes in vj n xms. hahaz so weird.
ya then there was tis mischievious little boy in our ward who kept looking under tt heavy metal door to see if e guard was there. soon the guard saw him n opened the door, asking us if we needed to go toilet. so we all went hahz. somehow i decided to go bathe, n saw huiqing there oso, so i told her to wait for me/ tt stupid toilet was clean, but very very cramped with absoulutely no space for extra movement.. i wont describe my bathing process haha.. but get the idea tt it wasnt tt easy la.
so after bathing i decided i had enoough n wanted to escape, but i cldnt find huiqing anywhere. so i was cursing n swearing to get back at the stupid judge. but as i walked out i realised the guards were everywhere!! i was feeling super dejected n frustrated, abt to scream when i suddenly woke up hahahaz.. tt stupid dream scared the hell outta me!! wonder if i shld continue to volunteer at imh.. =X

k enough abt nightmares, actualli i wanted to blog abt my two fav ted hughes poems.. feeling poetic todae haha.. ya so muz read!! the poems veri nnice!

The Horses

I climbed through woods in the hour-before-dawn dark.
Evil air, a frost-making stillness,

Not a leaf, not a bird, --
A world cast in frost. I came out above the wood

Where my breath left torturous statues in the iron light.
But the valleys were draining the darkness

Till the moorline -- blackening dregs of the brightening
grey --
Halved the sky ahead. And i saw the horses:

Huge in the dense grey, -- ten together --
Megalith-still. They breathed, making no move,

With draped manes and tilted hind-hooves,
Making no sound.

I passed, not one snorted or jerked its head.
Grey silent fragments

Of a grey silent world.

I listened in emptiness on the moor-ridge.
The curlew's tear turned its edge on the silence.

Slowly detail leafed from the darkness. Then the sun
Orange, red, red erupted.

Silently, and splitting to its core tore and flung cloud,
Shook the gulf open, showed blue,

And the big planets hanging --
I turned

Stumbling in the fever of a dream, down towards
The dark woods, from the kindling tops,

And came to the horses.
There, still they stood,
But now steaming and glistening under the flow of light,

Their draped stone manes, their tilted hind-hooves
Stirring under a thaw while all around them

The frost showed its fires. But still they made no sound.
Not one snorted or stamped,

Their hung heads as patient as the horizons
High over valleys, in the red levelling rays --

In din of the crowded streets, going among the years, the
faces,
May i still meet my memory in so lonely a place

Between the streams and the red clouds, hearing
curlews,
Hearing the horizons endure.

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Six Young Men

The celluloid of a photograph holds them well --
Six young men, familiar to their friends.
Four decades that have faded and ochre-tinged
This photograph have not wrinkled the faces or the
hands.
Though their cocked hats are not now fashionable,
Their shoes shine. One imparts an intimate smile,
One chews a grass, one lowers his eyes, bashful,
One is ridiculous with cocy pride --
Six months after this picture they were all dead.

All are trimmed for a Sunday jaunt. I know
That billberried bank, that thick tree, that black wall,
Which are there yet and not changed. From where these
sit
You hear the water of seven streams fall
To the roarer in the bottom, and through all
The leafy velley a rumouring of air go.
Pictured here, their expressions listen yet,
And still the valley has not changed its sound
Though their faces are four decades under the ground.

This one was shot in an attack and lay
Calling in the wire, then this one, his best friend,
Went out to bring him in and was shot too;
And this one, the very moment he was warned
From potting tin-cans in no man's land,
Fell back dead with his rifle-sights shot away.
The rest, nobody knows what they came to,
But come to the worst they must have done, and held it
Closer than their hope; all were killed.

Here see a man's photograph,
The locket of a smile, turned overnight
Into the hospital of his mangled last
Agony and hours; see bundled in it
His mightier-than-a-man dead bulk and weight:
And on this one place that keeps him alive
(In his Sunday best) see fall war's worst
Thinkable flash and rending, onto his smile
Forty years rotting into the soil.

That man's not more alive whom you confront
And shake by the hand, see hale, hear speak loud,
Than any of these six celluloid smiles are,
Nor prehistoric or fabulous beast more dead;
No thought so vivid as their smoking-blood:
To regard this photograph might well dement,

Such contradictory permanent horrors here
Smile from a single exposure and shoulder out
One's own body from its instant and heat.

yawnzzzz... so tired now.. after bloggin im gonna go slp liao hahaz.. todae i went out wif elaine aileen n celiana!! =D n guess wat elaine n me wore the same outfit again!! -copycat- =P hahaz.. guess ttz why they sae great minds think alike! (n small minds too) aniwae.. we were supposed to meet at cineleisure.. then elaine n i sort of lost our way hahaz.. so sad case.. asked a woman n she looked so shocked, like i was abt to rob her or something =.= finally aileen n cel came to pick us up hahaz.. ya then went to eat lunch.. after tt watch movie.. alot like love. actuialli i wasnt realli keen on watching tt but nvm it turned out quite nice after all. so after movies we were walking around then suddenly krys call me.. asked me where i was n acted all mysterious.. i was sure she was up to something,. was juz telling cel abt it when stupid krys came popping out frm no where n yelling at me!!! scared me hahaz.. but was so happie to see them!! so qiao hor haha.. guess the chinatown trip backfired?? hahz.. =P ya then i intro elaine they all to pam pris n krys.. but i forgot to intro u guys back to them hahaz.. oops =S but nvm la hor hah..
oh ya krys u sae u all went wisma/?? cuz after we sent off cel we oso go wisma leh!! but nv see u guys leh.. hahaz/
so all in all todae quite a fun but tiring day.. haiz dunno when still can go out n haf fun?? well at least got long weekend =) am pondering whether i shld start on my stack of undone math tutorials.. *yux*
n btw i still cant get the stupid shoutbox to work./ i saw yk taggin krys blog leh but when i try tagging oso cannot.. hmmph. either the system hates me or theres something wrong with it/. they better repair it soon or im gonna file for it to shut down n quit wasting my time.. hahahz
kk im gg to slp le.. nite!!