Thursday, May 12, 2005
i think im going crazy. i dunno.. i was just sitting at the comp, typing the stupid GPP and reading a blog entry of one of my classmates. n suddenly i juz got this bout of depression hahaz..so many thing's been going on in my life.. so busy, so tired. i noe i shldnt be complaining, cuz eberybodyz facing the same crap aniwae. but.. somehow ppl can still squeeze in a fraction of joy in their lives, but i feel as though mine is deprived of any bit of happiness. geez n i realli dunno wat im typing right now.. all i noe of is an urge to rant and scream at everyone. screw the pw. screw THAT THING. n screw HIM. WATEVER. i shld juz screw myself instead. WHY? WHY is all this happening?? im so frustrated!!
so i juz read somebody;s blog, written in perfect english with all the chim words u can think of under the sun, and i feel super inferior. y am i typin in SINGLISH?? shldnt mi eng standard improve after so long at vj? but then again this is a super childish thing to whine abt la.. but i juz want to vent out my feelings- at anything!
and i read all the fun things she did in sch, with her friends. and when i tink of what ive been doing these past mths,,... well it seems like im wasting my youth! n winnie i miss you alot hah.. muz meet up ok?! *belated happie bdae*
n im also suffering frm nostalgia!!! i miss everything in xms!!! all the wonderful memories we shared there. all our joys n sorrows. all the fun. n the mugging. n the nagging frm mrs low.. and everthing kl wrote abt in her blog! i juz read her entry again n realised i got tears in my eyes. wat an irony. to tink i cldnt wait to get outta xms. i was so WRONG. i realli dun mind reliving my four exciting yrs there again, cuz i love tt place wif all our memories. haizz... why do ppl alwaez have regrets. when i finally close my eyes forever, will i look back upon my life n mourn over all the regrets? i realli hope not..
p.s : todae had five items,, failed 2. i realli cant do it. fell once n slipped twice in SBJ. stupid mat. i used to jump at least 145. now only 125?! I CANT BELIEVE IT. curse tt mat. curse everything. arrgh.
alone wif the stars above @ 6:35 PMso i juz read somebody;s blog, written in perfect english with all the chim words u can think of under the sun, and i feel super inferior. y am i typin in SINGLISH?? shldnt mi eng standard improve after so long at vj? but then again this is a super childish thing to whine abt la.. but i juz want to vent out my feelings- at anything!
and i read all the fun things she did in sch, with her friends. and when i tink of what ive been doing these past mths,,... well it seems like im wasting my youth! n winnie i miss you alot hah.. muz meet up ok?! *belated happie bdae*
n im also suffering frm nostalgia!!! i miss everything in xms!!! all the wonderful memories we shared there. all our joys n sorrows. all the fun. n the mugging. n the nagging frm mrs low.. and everthing kl wrote abt in her blog! i juz read her entry again n realised i got tears in my eyes. wat an irony. to tink i cldnt wait to get outta xms. i was so WRONG. i realli dun mind reliving my four exciting yrs there again, cuz i love tt place wif all our memories. haizz... why do ppl alwaez have regrets. when i finally close my eyes forever, will i look back upon my life n mourn over all the regrets? i realli hope not..
p.s : todae had five items,, failed 2. i realli cant do it. fell once n slipped twice in SBJ. stupid mat. i used to jump at least 145. now only 125?! I CANT BELIEVE IT. curse tt mat. curse everything. arrgh.