Friday, February 17, 2006
havent blogged in like dunno how many months.. year 2 in jc is so busy!!!
I cant really rmb what i did for the past mths haha.. seem to recall quite alot of lit and econs essays..
kinda confused lately.. shld i continue with my s papers? so that can hope to get a scholarship, but what if i dont get one? competition is so strong, i dont want to waste my time esp since i realli need more time on normal A lvl work.. haiz..confused abt my future too.. i realli wan to work in the tourism industry, but i've got no exp to speak of, esp compared to those shatec students.. n the pay is not v good too..im hoping to get the firefly STB scholarship, but if if i get it, will i wan to go overseas? and its all such a faraway dream anyway, since im not really doing great in my studies anyway.
so tired everyday.. i dont understand why school ends so late every single day when ppl can finish at like 10 am . sometimes i feel quite depressed, dunno why im doing all these for, i mean study and study for what? if what i want to do has nth to do with what im doing now, and i dont even know what i really really want; and do i really want a scolarship? why not just go to an odinary uni in singapore and take something normal and do something normal? if i am gg overseas i need to take SATs but what if i do really badly? im not really keen on spending 6 hrs doing exam qns nonstop and spending 100+ dollars if in the end i end up studying in s'pore or perhaps not even studying in uni if i really wanna go shatec which means i'll only have one career option all my life..and i dont tink i'll be able to stand being away frm my family for so many yrs anyway.. arghs confused confused and stressed stressed..
maybe sometimes its better to be just an odinary girl..
and common tests are coming and im so dead. havent touch maths, lit and and practically absorbed nth that i tried to read in geog and econs. why is geog becoming so difficult too?? i dont understand what im reading!
alone wif the stars above @ 7:22 PMI cant really rmb what i did for the past mths haha.. seem to recall quite alot of lit and econs essays..
kinda confused lately.. shld i continue with my s papers? so that can hope to get a scholarship, but what if i dont get one? competition is so strong, i dont want to waste my time esp since i realli need more time on normal A lvl work.. haiz..confused abt my future too.. i realli wan to work in the tourism industry, but i've got no exp to speak of, esp compared to those shatec students.. n the pay is not v good too..im hoping to get the firefly STB scholarship, but if if i get it, will i wan to go overseas? and its all such a faraway dream anyway, since im not really doing great in my studies anyway.
so tired everyday.. i dont understand why school ends so late every single day when ppl can finish at like 10 am . sometimes i feel quite depressed, dunno why im doing all these for, i mean study and study for what? if what i want to do has nth to do with what im doing now, and i dont even know what i really really want; and do i really want a scolarship? why not just go to an odinary uni in singapore and take something normal and do something normal? if i am gg overseas i need to take SATs but what if i do really badly? im not really keen on spending 6 hrs doing exam qns nonstop and spending 100+ dollars if in the end i end up studying in s'pore or perhaps not even studying in uni if i really wanna go shatec which means i'll only have one career option all my life..and i dont tink i'll be able to stand being away frm my family for so many yrs anyway.. arghs confused confused and stressed stressed..
maybe sometimes its better to be just an odinary girl..
and common tests are coming and im so dead. havent touch maths, lit and and practically absorbed nth that i tried to read in geog and econs. why is geog becoming so difficult too?? i dont understand what im reading!