haiii wat a sad mid autumn festival ar.. im sick, my mom's sick, my dad's sick, my bro's in some ulu camp and there's not even a moon in sight. clouds and smoke everywhere.. cant stand the haze, its making me cough like mad, my eyes are itchy, my throat is itchy, my skin is itchy, and every breath smells like someone's been barbequeing for the past week and forgot to extinguish the fire.. smoke smoke smoke.. which kinda reminds me of how i smoked thru my prelims haha.. my results suck, lit is like a goner.. i jus dunno why i cant do lit. its not like i dont study, i realli do, but no results.. cannot means cannot, which part of tat cant u ppl understand? and human geog too.. arghs its too horrible for words haha. and econs.. watever happened to my case study? my essays? a total mess..and maths dont even need to say ba. sians.. trying to mug is like a futility..cant absorb. even if i know all the points on my fingertips, so wat? when i look at the paper sometimes i blank out, sometimes wat i write jus isnt wat they want. im trying to psyche myself up, tell myself i can do it, maybe not straight As like elaine, but it gets depressing sometimes.. is anyone feeling the same too??

midautumn night, moonless night.
smoky haze gets in your eyes
cant see no stars, cant see no light
is my future going to be this dark?
little vampires come out to dance
cuz only the dead have time for life
while the living are but lifeless tombs
more dead than the undead
dancing under the invisible moon
as the world spins itself to hell
well at least they're having fun
while the rest of us stay home to rot
rutting among books and notes
can u see the words flying all around
like the swirls of smoky dust
nothings getting in my head
god im cooking up a silly poem at midnight
wish i got the mood to mug
little vampires come suck my blood
save me from this hot choking night
the dreariness of life (books numbers essays!)
worse than the peltering of november rain
all dreams awashed down the drain.