i am kind of...sad.
arghs i dont know why either, just tat feel veri tired recently.. everyday just passes by so meaninglessly. work, home, work home, yadayada and so on.. weekends also work or do things that make me feel so tired. maybe because im bored with my life. how come other ppl's lives always seem so much more enriching? i think i dont have enough time for myself, for my family. yet, there's nth i can do abt it. unless i quit my job n remain penniless for the rest of the time til august cuz im not getting pocket money anymore.
or maybe its CNY. haha i dont like this festival. cuz i have to go and yingchou ppl. i used to look fwd to my birthday, but not anymore. last time have school holidays, but not anymore. and i doubt i can take leave to go holiday in march cuz my colleague wont be around and someone must be in the offiice, although i feel like a klutz sitting around an empty room. but then again, i dont want to go back to school and face exams, projects and all that rubbish. im so not looking fwd to uni unlike other ppl haha. i've had ENOUGH of mugging and studying.
basically, i just dont know what i want to do in my life. all the things i said i wan to do, i havent done, either because i have no time, i dont feel like at that moment, or i have no money and nobody to do it with me. well, actually there are, but then weird me will suddenly feel like being alone instead. haha..
when a door closes on u, look for another open door.
what if, i dont like the direction the new door is leading to?
what if i still want to open the old door, go down the same route, even though its not the same anymore?
haiya im so sleepy now.. but again cant sleep. how much of our lives is dependent on our own choices? actually most of the time our actions are a consequence of circumstances.. so... just go with the flow lor.