yesterday i went for the city harvest church orientation at ntu.. ie organised by CHC seniors who are in ntu. im so glad i went! unexpectedly, the ppl there were jus so lame and funny, i clicked immediately with them. haha..we played lots of lame funny icebreaker games, like human connect four and the 洗牛奶 game, which is like the lamest thing i ever played.. then in the afternoon brother darren shared a word, and after that there's this group game, where we had to go all ard ntu completing game tasks to crack a code.. some of the game tasks were really urghs. like helping each other wear lemon soaked socks in 1 min, eating the lemons, catching ants and stuff.. in the end my grp lost hhaa.. but we got the prize for being the most enthu group!! lol.hmm tat proves i can be enthu if i want to. haha..then the seniors there also very crappy, the moment they saw us freshies they were like analysing how we can join in nxt year's parade of schools..so me and the other freshie girls (they also very nice!) were jus nice standing in a row, then the guys came and like, "wa *point* potential flyer, *point* potential flyer, *point* potential flyer!" when it came to me they asked my weight so i said 38, then they say i can be the next Legend of ntu hahah.. legend is the girl who's always at the top tier of the ntu pyramid..they call her legend cuz she's also very lightweight haha. so they said next year we can go up to 4 tiers. haha. dont know leh, i nv tried cheerleading since sec2, and tat time we didnt have to fly here fly there, sounds super dangerous.. then at night was talentime, got drama, songwriting and vocals. i was in the vocals hah. and i didnt noe singing in the choir is sooooo chim! i thought only the professional choirs or sch choirs will have harmonise and sopranao, alto whatever one, and church choir is jus go up and well, sing. but apparently not hah. so yesterday we sang thats wat friends are for, which is actually quite easy to learn, but then they decided to do the harmonise thing, which made it 10 times more chim, but also sounded 10 times better haha..
we also went ard looking at the halls, and their recreation rooms all quite cool.. but the laundry part abit weird cuz everybody jus hang on the balcony railings, like hdb flat like tat.the halls also have their own performance areas, and there's some hall olympiad thing being prepared.. i was thinking maybe its gotta do with the hall camp thingie..anyway, i really had tons of fun yesterday, now my whole body aching..too long nv exercise haha. anyway cant hurt to know more ppl in uni right.. so, ya really glad to have met such a dynamic bunch of ppl before i even stepped officially into ntu. so in future if i have problems there, at least i know who to find haha. ntu ministry =)

im over my short bout of depression too. haha. nth wrong really,few days ago i was feeling depressed cuz i was looking into the mirror and was like why am i so ugly and short!! and i felt super useless and like im invisible to the world and i dont feel like meeting up with ppl cuz they will think im ugly and antisocial. sounds so superficial now, because ya thats wat it is! superficial..and its so qiao that both pastor and brother darren said the same thing : the world looks at appearance, but God looks at the heart. that sometimes u feel lousy abt yourself, but really u dont know how much you can do.. and i went home and something prompted me to read jeremiah 13.. this verse : you have forgotten me and trusted in false gods. and that brought me back to last last sat's cell grp, brother kel said that a god does not have to be an idol, but anything that u place greater importance than God, and that engaging the world doesnt mean you must accept and conform to its views. and i was like, ya hor, why am i suddenly so self-doubting and so obsessed with physical appearances?( i suspect its the stupid 9pm drama cuz it places so much emphasis on looks haha) and so it was like so linked. the message behind is that i shldnt worry too much abt these worldly stuff la. so im like undepressed already. haha

'though knowing well
the danger of these evil worldly pleasures
we still cling to them so firmly
oh how great is our folly!'

ripped this frm pam's blog.. haha ya tats so true.