listening to fan wei qi's 不能跟情人說的話 has made me emo again haha. but in a good way :)
cuz i suddenly feel so thankful for all the ppl ard me.. there's so many ppl in this world i love..
my family!
realised that over the years i've been taking and taking so much from them..sigh feel abit bad abt it..like my mom who will cook food that i like to eat jus because canteen food sucks.. my dad who pays for all my needs and never once complained. my brother who will go out to buy stupid calculator batteries for me when he's sick and still have to tolerate my lameness haha. and sometimes i can be such a dumbo and complainer. i tink if im one of my family members i probably cant stand myself haha..always worried abt myself and neglecting other ppl's needs..and i spend so little time with them! since i moved to hall i rarely see my family anymore.. sometimes i wonder if there's a difference whether im at home or not haha since i dont contribute much..oh no i must start loving my family more..i want to be with my family!! jus that sometimes theres jus so many things to do and so many ppl wanting my time..mm.. so when i go out to work i want to repay all of them for all they've done for me :)
muskies and strawberry shortcakes
muskies we've known each other for so so so many years!! and strawberry shortcakes haha known each other since our vj yeats.. and even though we're like all so busy, once in awhile we still make the effort to meet up, and somehow everything just falls into place like we've never separated.. i really treasure this group of friends.. i hope one day when we're all old and sick we can still meet up and chat abt all our past experiences together haha..
my hall friends
even though ive known them for like only a few mths we've become so close.. from doing crazy stuff like star gazing at the top of ADM at 4am, car chasing,playing card games overnight, getting emo together etc.. i somehow know if i need help i can just tell them..and they're really really nice ppl..can drive all the way from boon lay to hougang jus to send me home, can stay up the entire night helping each other do videos for presentations, can spend the whole night sharing abt our lives, can make placards to support me etc etc..im really glad i got to know this bunch of ppl.. maybe i wont be staying hall nxt yr but its okay, they've made a difference in my life, and i hope i have made a difference in their lives. today pastor shared abt the star thrower story.. even though i heard it so many times, but still it inspired me to want to make a difference in ppl's lives.
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me dearest cell grp..though im always MIA for fellowship, they always continue to msg me for gatherings and write postcards and stuff..maybe im not that close to the cell, cuz im always rushing off somewhere to do proj or or go home to spend time with my family..but i noe they are a bunch of really cool and sincere ppl who truly care for me..
and of cuz, God,
for putting all these wonderful ppl in my life, for giving all these to me even though i can be such a horribly selfish and self-centred person. :)
on a random note, maybe one day i will be able to love maths as well. LOL!
sometimes i feel like im emotionally exhausted cuz there are jus so many ppl who want my time.. or i feel obliged to spend time with them.. then i will feel like being antisocial and just ask everyone to shut up and leave me alone.. but then again i wont actually do it cuz its like against my morals haha.. and then i will feel really exaperated and annoyed.. but actually right, its good that so many ppl want to spend time with me!! shows that im a likable person right. haha..perhaps its part of being the salt and light and engaging culture.. i jus hope i will be a good representative of God and not be overwhelmed by the things and values of the world..

on another note, i jus realised i have 'collected' a bunch of nicknames over the years haha:
tweety bird, dumpty tweedledum, snailie, 小薇，小雪，雪人，殺龍，殺人婆，strawberry shortcake,小S，poh poh, sarong, 暖暖包，28-kg girl poogy etc haha..=/